I am a common girl with many dreams in my life, when i was 12 years old i met a boy elder to me, who is my relative that is my mom's aunt's son ( my mom's younger brother) which i came to know after hearing from her elder sister, i have never seen him before but after that i had a different feeling for him i could not figure out whether it is a affection/crush/love, but i have never imagined that my first crush would end like this
when i was 12 years old my family announced to hold my aunt's wedding that is my mom's younger sister, we were very happy and i was more excited to see a wedding for the 1st time in our family
Also wedding date was fixed during our summer holidays so we were just enjoying the holiday, for about one week before the marriage me, my sister and my brother were staying at my grandma's home
We were shopping for the whole week. They arranged for a wedding reception in the wedding hall before the wedding, there i was introduced to a girl who came with her parents to attend the wedding we became friends and enjoying eachothers company
After some time i went to the restroom which is near the balcony, after i came out i saw some boys standing in the balcony and also they were looking at me and laughing i could not understand for what they were laughing i felt embrassing and went to the brides room, i thought them as some perverts and went to sleep as i was very tired
The next morning is the wedding my aunt was beautiful in her marriage dress with simple make up and jewellery. Me and my friends were playing with the kids and were having delicious foods, suddenly my mom's aunt's daughter came to me and introduced me to a boy whom i saw yesterday night actually he is her brother, we are relatives but i never knew him before
But i dnt have any idea whether he knew me before or he just came to know about me as i know. And why was he and his friends laughing at me, i had a lot of questions running in my mind. Then he started a chat and his friends joined him me my friend and my sister were chatting and laughing for a long time i had a feeling that he was watching me more than other as i could see him clearly watching me, i don't what is that feeling but it was nice, i was in a daze that whether he have a crush on me that thought only made me blush
The wedding ended with great happiness and also we were very sad that our aunt will be living in another house, everyone where leaving the wedding hall and we packed our stuffs and were about to leave i was searching for him then i saw him in the car i requested my mom to let me go by his car and i went in his car he smiled and blushed even i was blushing
It was like butterflies in stomach i could not name that feeling , then i reached my aunt's new home for the farewell. As i could not see him there i figured out it he might have returned to his home. Then after the holidays i went to my school i never saw him i don't know where he lives, i guess even he don't have any idea about how to contact me or maybe he forgot about me or maybe he don't have any feelings for and i just have affection towards me these questions where running in my mind
As we did not speak more and we were not that close
i could not figure out the situation. Days passed and his started fading in my mind but our meeting and my affection towards him were frozen in my heart. After some school days i had a long holiday i spent some of the days in my grandma's house with my sister, one day my mom's aunt came to our house she told that her son dropped her here and left as she was passing by our house as it was late she can stay in our house for the night i got surprised as she mentioned his name i came to my sense that he is the one whom i met in the marriage i was surprised but disappointed as he left
That night i could not sleep properly i was thinking about him that why did he leave? He would have come to our house what will be his reaction when he see me here? Whether he will have the same feeling as i have, whether he remembers me what if he does not recognise me
Then his mother left in the morning as she had works to do, i was thinking that will his mother speak about me like i was there in my grandma's home, what will be his reaction whether he will think the same as i did whatever i could not get the answer for many quetion in my mind and also my heart
Years passed like that i was doing my things as i usually do going to school and all those stuffs i never thought much about him but some time that memories will flash in my mind i will sigh and be a little sad. I did not see him or heard about for years i thought he might have forgot about me so i didnot take any initiative and was going with the flow
During weekend my mom got a call from my grandma after some time my mom was getting ready to go out i asked her what happened she said her aunt's son was met with an accident as he went out with his friends and was dead in the spot her aunt has 3 sons i asked whom she mentioned his name i was shocked as it was him i asked her again to confirm it she explained its him i was in a daze i could not figure out whats happening. My mom did not take us to their house as we were very young and also she thought we will be scared
I didnot cry or showed any reaction as nobody knows about my feelings for him, still i did not feel like crying ,i only prayed for him to rest in peace, as mom came back she was speaking about how her aunt was broken as he is her last younger son and also he is very caring and dear to her and also he was saying that he is very kind and good boy aslo he use take good care of his mom
I was felt very sad hearing that i could not believe that he is no more and is this fate that we are not destined to meet eachother again
Many years passed after that and i am 22 years old now i still remember his name and our memories but i could not remember his face like before but still i hope he lives in another world peacefully and he will be my first crush forever in my heart
Also i hope he will be watching me from heaven and bless me whole heartedly
