It hurts ,my body's shaking and trembling ,the only thing I remembered so far is getting hit ,or someone shouting , and it's always dark ,always . My legs are tightly gripped by a heavy thing that makes a cling sound . By body feels cold sometimes and after a time gets hot .I'm stomach grumbles and My body throbs in pain but I cannot speak ,I only know the words ,"bastard,"Asshole,"Piece of shit,"you freak,"x--- " . Is there any words other than this ? Maybe there is ! That's why Iam able to think it right ?
I remember a heavy voice and a high pitch voice coming somewhere from darkness around me , Is this world I'm in always dark ,is there no brightness?
I learned that if I don't eat something I'll feel weak ,very weak that I won't be able to move . Sometimes the voices came before hitting me gives me some meals . I'm thankful to them . Sometimes when I don't get them I'll just dig the place under me with the thing that has a small bowl in its top and a handle to hold it . I just dig and dig until I find some crawling things . I eat them and sleep on the cold ground . I always wondered if it feels good to sleep in a warm ground .
The voice acme again ? Who's this time ? A heavy voice or a high pitch voice ? - - -
Oh ,it was the high pitch one , She's here to give me pain again ? I guessed that ,but I felt a grab on my arms lifting me , that someone was pulling me , I started stepping that I felt I was walking upwards. The lifted my head and saw it . A different colour ,I saw a different colour than darkness in a square shape . It was rather opposite of dark. I walked desperately even with my weak legs . As soon as I get inside the square shape light. I bend my knees and curled up ,I couldn't face it properly . My eyes were weak . That high pitch voice forcefully grabbed my hands away from my face . I closed my eyes ,I stood up . I can hear The heavy voice and the high pitch voice were talking about something . The heavy voice just grabbed me and tug me to a place . I was just peeking untill that someone stopped pulling me , I slowly open my eyes . I looked around for a bit , I was wondering about the colours ,I couldn't describe the feeling of able to see different colours rather than dark . But when I saw that heavy voice ,he was a old man and in his hands was a long thin thing which had a triangle shaped head ,it's endings looked sharp .
I don't know why but I felt a sense of danger in it ,I pushed him away and ran untill I came near a place that had water *lake* I was just gazing at it ,I raised some of it in my bowl arms . I drank it ,I was so happy to taste a clean water . I desperately jumped into the water ,it was deep ,I could touch the ground with my feet ,I felt weak ,I couldn't breathe , I tried to move my hands up and down and it worked too ,I was coming up but then I thought its really easy , countless times when I was hungry ,when I was in pain ,I always thought if there is an end to the long endurance ,but when I'm here inside this clean water I can feel the endurance is very short and will come to an end very soon . I stopped moving my hands and sink deep and deep untill I lied on the ground under . It felt good on a warm ground . Just a little longer and I felt asleep . It's really peacefull now .
