I begged you stay.
I tried to make you stay.
I did everything I could to make you stay with me.
But in the end you left me
You know I still remember the times we
broke up.
Our relationship wasn’t good. it wasn’t healthy in any way. It started good and everything was fine. Until time pass by and you seemed to changed from the cheerful guy I knew to a person I didn’t even recognized.
The cheerful and funny guy I knew wasn’t no longer there.
You even hurt me deeply...
I still remember your words that you said to me.
When you were mad who did you blamed it to?
Me...
“Why are you always getting me angry at you?!”
“It used to be fun being with you but I’m feeling bored now”
“You are cheating me with someone else right? I know it”
“I don’t wanna talk with you right now, let’s talk later”
Even after leaving you hadn’t really told me you loved me it was only me. It went like that for a year
Breaking up and reconciliation after
I wanted to believed your sweet words
That you would change and everything would be fine.
Sweet words & Sweet lies...
I knew it. Everyone told me to leave you. Blind by my love for you I always said you would change.
But I knew it a along after many breaks up. That it wouldn’t work but I wanted to have faith and that with love I could change you.
As time pass I realized I couldn’t change you. Every time I tried I would be the one that ended up hurt or that cried every night after a fight or argument because you blamed everything on me.
Even for a second or a minute.
I thought it was really my fault. I did something wrong it was my fault I deserve it. Those thoughts kept coming in my mind.
Every time we argued or you got angry at me
They got stronger I thought I was doing something wrong that’s why we would argue with each other.
I tried to be peaceful but you would always ended up getting angry at me hurting me deeply
Until the day you broke up with me the last time.
That’s when I realized it, even you said you didn’t love me anymore. It was all one sided then? Did you even love me?
I wanted to ask but I never did
I cried so much every day at night when everyone was asleep trying to think that you would come back to me as always.
That never happened. Months passed and I still couldn’t forget you. I really missed you and I missed everything about you.
Until a few 4 or 3 months after our break up.
You were with someone else your new girlfriend.
“Did I really meant so little to you?”
“Did you really not love me?”
“We’re you even sad when you left me?”
Those questions were always in my mind.
I knew I was torturing myself so I did as my friends said to do. Distract myself to not look at you not even a glance.
That’s what I did. Slowly I started to think differently realizing the things that I did wrong.
I should have never put up with it knowing that it would end up wrong every time.
I should have never blamed myself because it was both us to blame not only me.
I started to see things differently and once after we talked after but we were just friends now
Your relationship wasn’t good and I was giving you advice it was weird but I no longer felt like I had feelings of love towards you
After a few days we talked again telling me that you still loved me, your girlfriend broke up with you and at last you asked me
“Would you want to go back to being my girlfriend?”
If it was the old me who still loved you as much as I did before then I would without thinking go back to you.
It was different though all the memories of our past came flooding into my mind.
That’s when I decided
We had more bad memories than happy memories. I know that you change but my love for you after a year felt like it had banished.
The only feeling I felt was a bit sentiment and a little of the love that I felt came back to me.
It wasn’t enough to go back with you, knowing your attitude and past actions it didn’t feel right to go back there.
We were not meant to be together.
The only thing we do is hurt each other.
And honestly I don’t wanna go back to those dark days of fights and arguments over simple things.
So I finally said it
“I can’t be with you anymore” I smile at you a little sad “Let’s just be friends as before” he seemed shocked and surprised about my response
He left soon after leaving with an ok.
After a few days I felt like the second option you wonder why? He went to the ex-girlfriend that had broken up with him
I knew it...
I was just a second option for you...
I smile sadly I couldn’t change him but I was fine now even though he hurt me so much
I just wish that he finds happiness a person that can change him for the better because
I couldn’t change him....
With this everything will go back to just being friends even though I’m his ex-girlfriend I will help him..
Only a single tear rolled down my cheek.
I cried so much for you back then
But now I only shed a single tear for you
I cried too much and that was enough
E N D . . .
(This based on a true story from a friend that talked to me about this)
It’s sad when you give love but at the end it’s one sided right?
