Alright.. Alright.. Basically i wrote this its because being alone makes me happy.. Even i can handle myself.. I can live without them.. I want to take a rest.. Its too much for now on.. I want to disappear from this world.. I've done enough giving peoples feelings.. Because i made them happy.. And now me.. They left me behind.. And ended up loneliness.. I am so happy that sometimes or soon i'll disappear from this world.. And hoping that my friends and my family are safe.. I dont want to kill myself or rather id be die..
But.. Im wondering that if anyone is afraid of me by disappearing from their side...
I cant even handle their feelings.. All i want is to make them happy.. But for my life..
My life will ended up soon.. I want to take a rest..
I want to be alone.. Listening to music, to release the happenings from the past.. Making you sad, but the change into happiness.. Walking in the beach and looking up to see the stars..
The stars.. Are my family.. When one of the star disappears.. That means i leaved them behind.. Its because, that they gave me a horrible words and arguments..
All i want from this world.. Is i want to stay away from them.. And live a new life.. Change my world.. Change my happiness.. Change my feelings.. Forgeting the happenings from the past..
I am not stupid.. I just care their feelings and happiness..
Other people trying to nake me happy.. But it wont work for me.. Because i did too much pain from myself.. I brought it from my family..
People dont even understand me.. That why am i like this?..
Do i even need to tell them? My problems?
Well i cant, its too much for them to tell..
It'll hurt them when i tell them that what are my problems..
This is my biggest problem i can tell..
I just want to give up caring my family and leave them behind.. I hope they are happy without me 😭😇🙂😁
I cried because i left them..
I cried because i miss them..
I cried because of the happenings..
I cried im sad..
I cried becuase im weak..
But that doesnt mean i want to go back to my family and live them.. Or to make happy when i go back and apologize..
I want to be alone.. Far, far away from my family and friends.. AND EVERYONE..
I hope you all understqnd me..
And other people trying to make me a joke or make me overreacting..
They're thinking that im stupid.. And im acting like this..
No they're wrong.. I did all the things to make them happy.. And when i give them their happiness... They gave me nothing.. Its useless for me.. So i ended up being alone and sad..
Soon i'll disappear and i'll be happy forever..
Thanks for reading my story..
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