Fake

Lying behind my back wondering when it’ll all end. Giving them my all, but being let down once again. On and on again just playing pretend,

but like every single time, I’m let down again.  

In a room full of people filled with empty faces,

I’m forced to put up a front, so they don’t ask what the case is.

You showed me all the signs, but I chose to ignore them, and because of that, I feel so numb. 

Didn’t think friendship could be so fake,

while you say you love me but never to my face. Portraying something that could never be real,

but I guess that’s how it has to be to show you how I feel.  

Someone who can talk for hours,

someone who actually cares,

someone who would always be there for me,

but the only feelings they cared about was theirs.  

Giving you all my trust, which isn’t easy, you went and told everyone without feeling uneasy. Tired of having to open myself up to only be let down. Starting feel as if real people don’t exist now.  

Wondering how I didn't see it coming.

I just wish you didn't waste my time,

You made me feel like a joke

and our friendship was only part-time.

I know that I deserve better but I guess I was just blind.

Constantly hoping it would get better,

and constantly hoping I would be able to belong.

Now it's time for me to be strong,

and hoping that I'll be able to move on.