I like to see him when he get angery. I always make him angery. His name is Kim Jong Ming. I like him. But I know he don't like me and see me as his best friend only.
I am always like to dress like a boy. I was also cutting my hair like boy but my dad said not to and he also get angery when I saw about this topic.
I didn't care too. Oh Sorry I forgot to tell you. My name is Kim Ha Yung.
Kim Jong Ming is my childhood best friend. I start liking him the 2nd year of our highschool. He is handsome, tall, caring. He also had a girlfriend. The funny thing was that I have to help him with her girlfriend all the time.
But for that what hurt I get I see always take out on him by disturbing him.
He got angery but I anjoy seeing his angery face. Some time he say hard words but I don't mind. you can say don't want to mind.
Today is again the first school after summer vacation.
I come inside opening the door and saw he is sitting on bench and his head is down on the desk. I know what happened. He must saw his ex girlfriend with another girl.
I smrik and go to him and hit his back.
"don't disturb me Ha- yung I am not in mood"he said.
"oh really? You know you are really fool"I said and sit beside him.
"she don't even deserve you. Why don't you think about me"I said like a joke but one part or should I say all parts in my mind was saying it seriously.
yeah I can be a Tom boy but still I am girl.
"shut up Ha yung! Why you always make my mood more bad?"He said and stand up from there.
I also stand up.
he was leaving from class room and I also follow him.
I again hit him.I think today he is really not in mood for joking.
he push me in anger after I hit his head.
"JUST LEAVE FROM HERE!"he said Shouting. "if you can't make someone happy then don't make that worst! Stop this! huh! whom am I saying...do you really have a heart?" he said and leave from there.
usually I don't mind but I mind today somehow. I was standing there like a statu for a min.
actually I mind,I feel sad because it is going to my last day in school. Last day disturbing this idiot whom I love like a crazy.
a drop of tear fell from my eyes. I wip that. I have cancer I don't know how much time I have. But I am going to USA today in night. I don't even if I will come back home. come back here,in this classroom to disturb him.
I propose him today what was my dream. yes My proposal was a bit different. But it's my style. I don't know if he gonna understand me late. But if he it will be useless.
I was standing there with a sad eyes and a smile so that I could not lost my control from crying.
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after the school end he go out ignoring me because he was angry. I run to him.
I start walking with him "sorry"I said.
he didn't answer.
"talk with me...I am sorry.." I again said.
"I don't want to talk with people like you"He said. It's hurts. Why?why?
I smile and stop. he was still walking.
"hey! please talk with me....it can be that we won't talk with each other again"I said looking at him back.
"it is good"he said.does he have any idea what gonna happen? huh!
" we are 18 right? and you are gonna soon next week. Happy Birthday "I said.
"don't talk nonsense"he said and leave. I didn't follow him anymore. I don't want to. It was my fault to talk with him like that in morning. I just wanted to talk with hum nicely...for last time..
"bye then..hope we will meet in our next life...."I said look away with biting my lower lip for stopping my tears.
I am really unlucky that I can't even hug or kiss him once in my life.
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Kim Jong Ming's POV~
I come back to my home and throw my beg on bed. She made me really angry! I won't talk with him for one years! Hump! What she thinks she is?!
I go down after freshing up. I saw my mom's mood was very sad. "what's wrong with you?" I said.
"how can you be so clam? won't you go to say good bye to Ha yung?"she said.
"what? why?"I asked.
"she didn't tell you? she is leaving...to USA..she....she have... cancer"she said and cover her mouth.
I was feeling like someone put a heavy ston on my heart.
I was standing there like a statu...So For that she was acting like that...She wanted to talk wit..with me...H..How can She...
my eyes get teary...Why she always like this...WHY??!
I run to my room and get change and run out from my house.
I open arrive at there house and saw her parents is standing outside with laggage and with sad face.
I run to her room. I open the door and saw she was stand there with laggages and watching the room.
"HA YUNG!" I shouted.
she turn to me with surprised and I hug her. as I hug her I feel like she is so warm....I don't know I...I..want her to stay with me forever.
"y..you?"she said.
"WHY! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!"I said crying..Yes I am crying...crying like a baby..
"Ha Yung..I..I can't live without you.."I said I feel and hand on my head. he is patting my head softly.
"me either...But...I am sorry.I am happy you come."She said with smile.
"STOP IT! stop smiling! why?! why are you smiling?! I am sorry for what I say in the morning! Please don't leave me please"I said crying.
her face also become teary. " Jong Ming..."She said and I pull her into kiss what was done by my heart not my mind."
"you will come back! you have to" I said. she nod as yes I wip her tears and hug her and kiss on her head.
she start crying hard. It was my first time seeing her crying like this.
"I want to say...I...I Love You! I live you soo much!"She said.
"me too"I said. "Yes..I..I am a stupid that give you a lot of pain.Sorry.." I said.
"please come back soo I want to stay with you ally life please...*I said and she nod as yes hugging me.
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I open the door and come inside the class room again one year pass and now I am so happy.
I go inside the class room and saw Yung Ming turn to me with smile I also smile and sit beside him.
yes,I am alive. doctor said I have only 5% chance to become alive. I am get the luck what people get by only God's bless. Thank you God. Your heart is really big.
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I put my head on his sold and take out sigh of happyness.
