The cold blade hovered over my shoulder blades. My eyes we're absorbed in the metal beauty as it cut my skin and blood dripped out. After putting the knife back into my desk, I made my way to turn off the light stopping at the switch to glance at my arm. It was filled with scars. Cuts I made myself. But no one noticed, they never notice. Don't notice my fake smiles or how my sleeves are constantly getting longer. They don't notice my misery the pain that I'm going through. Sighing, I turn off the light and the room gets enveloped in darkness as I get sucked into more nightmares.
I awoke with a start. Checking the time, I had 4 hours till school. It was 4 in the morning. Well then, I'll just pass time and stare at the wall till then.
School. Our very own personal hell. We get fed knowledge that we'll rarely use and our precious time gets taken away, time that we'll never get back. The bell rang and next period I had lunch. Deciding to skip the rest of the day, I grab my things and sneak out the back door.
Where should I go I wonder to myself as I pounce on motorcycle. My body automatically moves itself as I turn on roads and pass signals until I find myself at the top of a cliff. I used to come here to calm myself down. There was a forest of trees below me leading to the bottom of the hill where the Colorado River is. It's quite a beautiful view and the weather is amazing too. The temperature is just right and the wind is enough to keep the current moving. It had rained yesterday, so the river was full too. Enjoying the view, I found my brain wandering off. Is this world better off without me? After all my mother has always called me useless while my father called me a spoiled brat. No one loved me and my friends just put up with me not really me any paying attention. My feet then start moving of their own accord and I find myself ready to walk off the cliff and die at the bottom when
"STOP" a deep familiar masculine voice called out from behind me. Soon, I found my back pressed against the back of a man with aMaZiNg muscles. Like actually, I could run my hands on them all day. I turned around to see what was standing between me and death and find myself entranced in a beautiful pair of green eyes.
"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING" he yells
Snapped out of my trance I reply, "That's not any of your businesses. Do I know you? If not, let me go back to what I was doing"
"ARE YOU CRAZY? No. I won't let you jump off that cliff. Think about the people who care for you. The people whose hearts you're gonna crush. Think about the life ahead of you. You're so young. You're yet to live. Please I'm begging you don't kill yourself."
"Ha people who care for me. If they did, they'd noticed my depression and my cuts and how hurt I am. They wouldn't be insulting me non stop. The people who I've trusted the most have betrayed me. And my life? There's no point. We live to die. We go through hell for those tiny happy moments. This is my life and if I want to end it I will. " I said through teary eyes.
"No wait please"
" Goodbye stranger and thank you for caring about me"
Leaving him in shock, I jumped off looking up once to see him crying and picked him saying something along the lines of it's all my fault Tiffany before everything went black and I remembered who he was. My cheating ex.
