ON 14 AUGUST 2022,
she died,
I still remember the exact date when she came into my life. It's 19 FEBRUARY 2019, but now she has left me alone in this world... I wish I could go with her, we were in the same collage and in the same class as well, and she always used to sit next to me, so we were together throughout the day, atleast 12 hours, and now she is gone... It's my second day without her, I can't forget her, I went to my college, and was looking at her table. On that table I can see her handwriting carved on the desk, and it was written "I Love You" but now she isn't with me anymore.....
We used Instagram for chatting, so I just used to type everything to her in the chat. Every morning I would wake up and send her "good morning". When I used to go out, I would always share wherever I went, like " I'm at this place right now". Everything I would write in the chat, at night I opened her instgram account and replied to my message thinking of her, what she said to me. I was crying a lot, why did this happened with me? I loved her so much , I then texted her " I LOVE YOU " then opened her account and replied to myself " I LOVE YOU TOO" I know it'll change nothing but from this things I don't cry anymore I feel like she is with me, she texts me but now lately........
I can see her in my dreams, in the morning, afternoon, evening and night I just doze off to sleep and spend time with her in my dreams. I started taking medicine for sleep. I enjoyed life like this too much. I would ho to college only when something important happened. I just sleep and in dreams i talked to her about everything that happens with me and everything else. I would sleep anywhere, I missed her so much. I know my mental health was very bad now but still I wanted to do this. I wanted to live with her in my dreams, I was so happy at night in my dreams! I spent lots of time with her, we walked through the city and enjoyed a lot but when I wake up I would think that she went her home and at night she comes back to meet me. Thats how I kept believing that she was not dead. One day in my dreams I met her and told her that tomorrow I will her a big surprise. I planned to give her an engagement ring 💍but that night my parents caught me when i was taking the medicine. For the first time at night I was not able to meet her. I was crying too much thinking that she was waiting for me. I wanted to go there and meet her. I was begging to my parents- "Please! just for once, only once! give me that medicine I want to see her!!"
I was crying so much thinking that she was sitting and waiting for me....
After that time I started hating everyone. I didn't wanted to talk to anyone. I Just ended up losing my control on my mind. So my parents took me to the metal hospital, The Doctors informed that I took excess amount of medicine. I just Kept on repeating just one word again and again that she was waiting for me! waiting for me! WAITING FOR ME!! I was begging to my parents that one time! Just for one time, I wanted to sleep, my parents saw me and finally they agreed and said "yes" but that time the doctor came and said to my parents that I wont be able to sleep anymore because I have taken too much medicine. Tears came for my eyes, she was waiting for me, I wanted to meet her but... I can't sleep and she waiting for me there at that place i can feel it......
