First Love

Summary:

Jungkook goes back, and the memories also go back.

Memories of the first time when he had his innocence first taken by his Jimin-hyung.

Notes:

this is too sinful, please bathe me in holy water. dont really write smut but this idea struck and ya know. also here's for the readers waiting for 'love is not over' update. also, i'm warning you, this is underage. UNEDITED TOO.

Upon arriving at the place, I could still remember it so vividly—the memories that I made here with him, it brought blood rushing to my veins whilst pumping against my ears thus making the familiar heat crawling all over my body and erupting in my cheeks, leaving me flustered.

I was young back then, I used to be a cry baby that I usually get isolated by my peers because they didn’t want to play with the likes of me. Therefore during my childhood years, I spent most of my time with Jimin-hyung. Images of Jimin-hyung popped into my mind; him carrying boxes here and there, him helping out the ahjummas and fixing broken pipes and electronics. My heart was racing as I recall the sight of him in his tank top drenched in his sweat, the way his arms flexed as he carried the heavy equipment he's going to need when he starts working.

Jimin-hyung was around twenty years old, he was the son of the kind teacher at the nearby school, our families were great friends and we were just houses away too. Despite the age gap, Jimin-hyung greatly adjusted to me, he was caring and kind enough not to push me away when I bug him during his work. In return, I always help him by passing around his tools, or running and getting something he forgot inside their house.

“Doesn’t your mom look for you?” Jimin-hyung had asked sometime, and I replied, “No, my mom and dad always know I’m here, hyung. And they’re really happy with it, they say it’s good that I look up to you as my hyung, I’ll learn better from you than playing around.”

Jimin-hyung chuckled. God, he was so handsome, my hyung, he had a wonderful nose, perfectly defined jaw, and he had those tiny eyes that turned into crescents when he smiled wide.

However, there was a time I saw those same eyes flickering with malevolent emotions when hyung got really angry. He had this deathly glare affixed into beautiful eyes as he talked to someone over the phone. I tried to talk to him after that and it turned out hyung and his ex-girlfriend had a fight. Jimin-hyung got up from his seat, he was so big, he wasn’t tall, yes, but he was buff — with his arm muscles bulging appealingly when he wore his muscle shirt at that moment — but not the gym monsters type of buff, Jimin-hyung was much better and seemed more natural as he got it from exercising and carrying stuff here and there.

“Are you bored?” He asked me while I just gazed at him, taking in his handsome features and then my eyes landed on his boxers. There was a slight tent forming in there, and I couldn’t help but stare in curiosity of what’s underneath.

“Hey, kook,” He nudged, the feeling of Jimin-hyung’s hot skin against mine had a lingering feeling that I couldn’t pinpoint what.

“Oh yeah, hyung?” I finally answered, breaking out from my trance.

“I said, are you bored? Do you want to play?”

“Nah, I’m fine, hyung. You can work. I’ll help you.”

“Is that so? I guess you just want to help me because you know I’ll end up buying you ice cream right after.”

And that was a silent spoken deal, it seemed like it became Jimin-hyung’s habit to buy me or treat me out right after doing his work. Lately, I’ve been asking ice cream repeatedly from him, and Jimin-hyung would just buy it for me after he’s done with his work where I ended up a big help.

“No way! I like helping you and being here, hyung.” I said in defense, standing up as well and I was just under him, so tiny against his large and tall frame.

“Oh, is that so? Is that really it?” Jimin-hyung smirked, jumping at me and tickling me non-stop, it had me by surprise that I couldn’t do anything to defend myself, so I was left giggling and whimpering at him. I fell into him, against his hard body and my legs struck at his bulge. I could feel it! Jimin-hyung wore thin fabrics because of the heat that’s why it felt like I was just a layer away from feeling his raw body.

I knew, in my young age, that I like hyung. He was so good-looking, there were a lot of girls fawning over him at the neighborhood to testify, and he has a nice body, I’ve seen it numerous times when I caught him dressing in his clothes after shower or when working, he removes it and uses it to wipe the sweat enveloping his body.

“H-hyung!” I whimpered, feeling defeated with all the tickling.

We fell over and I landed on top of Jimin-hyung, it made Jimin-hyung stop too, my legs felt something pulsing and as I moved to look at Jimin-hyung’s face, the feeling of something against my legs felt harder and rigid. I looked at him, and Jimin-hyung looked at me back, he just smirked and pulled me up, carrying me with him as he stood up. We were both dirty from being laid down on the ground.

“Just right timing, I was going to take a shower. Then we can go grab some ice cream?” Jimin-hyung said, swiping away the spots of dirt on his tank top and boxer. I just nodded away as I followed Jimin-hyung go inside in their house, usually none other than Jimin-hyung was at home, Jimin-hyung’s dad was always out on business trips while his mom is working. So most of the time, it was Jimin-hyung that was only here. Jimin-hyung is in a military academy that also explains his natural muscles and tough demeanor, he only did the mechanics and fixing electronics as a past time when he's on break or vacation, according to him it was his way of relaxing and relieving out his stress and because his body had constantly craved the familiar adrenaline when he does extensive training or just doing things within the academy.

“Kook, you better wait here. Do you want something?” Jimin-hyung asked, removing his slippers and entering the room ahead of me. He removed his tank top, sniffed at it before throwing it at the nearby laundry basket. It gave me a sight of Jimin-hyung’s washboard abs and my gaze trailed down I could also see the defined cut of his v-line.

“J-just water, hyung,” I said before swallowing the forming lump in my throat.

“We have juice though,”

Jimin-hyung handed me a glass of juice, it gave me an ample amount of his topless body, the back muscles and his abs they were a sight to behold. I gulped the glass of water in one go, and in my haste, the juice had ruined my shirt! Jimin-hyung took his tank top back and used to rub it on me and all.

“You were thirsty all this time, you didn’t even tell me. Then, we need to get you to shower. You can take after me,”

I followed hyung to the bathroom door and before entering he had removed his boxers that I caught sight of what’s really beneath it. I saw Jimin-hyung’s cock, he was about to enter when he saw me staring at it. “That’s bad, kook, you shouldn’t stare at my naked body like that, turn around.” He lightly scolded but I knew it was a joke judging by the way a smile crept up to his lips after saying that.

I spent waiting for Jimin-hyung to get over with his shower but then amidst of hearing the droplets of water, I had heard him cursed. He had forgotten his towel, so he yelled for my name and asked me to bring the towel.

“What, hyung?” I acted as if I didn’t hear but knowing Jimin-hyung, he’ll only get out of the shower room and tell it to me clearly.

“I said, can you bring me the towel!”

“What, hyung?”

Annoyed, I heard the bathroom door open and Jimin-hyung tell it to me personally. I pulled out the towel from my back and handed it to him by chuckling, he squinted his eyes at me before carrying me and bringing me inside the bathroom, and placed me in front of the shower making me wet all over.

“Hyung! I’m all wet!” I whined then catching the sight of Jimin-hyung’s fully naked body.

“It’s fine! Let’s just shower together, besides you’re already wet from the juice.” He winked and laughed before bending down and asked me to scrub his back. I obliged though, taking the bar of soap from Jimin-hyung’s hands and washed his back thoroughly. I scrubbed it over and over, prolonging the period of scrubbing because the feeling of Jimin-hyung’s hard and broad back is something I like, his body is so good.

“It seems like you want to break my back from all that scrubbing.”

“My mom does this to me, she said I should clean myself thoroughly.” I said in retort.

“Is that so? Then do you want to play pretend? That you’re my mom and I’m the son you’re giving bath to?”

I chuckled, “well-“

But before I could speak, Jimin-hyung stood up and turned around, said huskily, “Then, can kook-eomma wash my body for me?” As he turned around, his cock had hit my chest!

“Why is your peepee so big, hyung?”

“It’s because I’m an adult, silly, don’t worry, yours will grow too when you grow up.” Jimin told him.

It was so big! It looked so big and…hard. “Do you want to wash my cock for me, kook?”

I nodded then I covered my hands with soap suds and took hold of Jimin-hyung throbbing cock. It was so big, I couldn’t even fully wrap his cock with my hands, it was just so big, even the tip of his cock was big! There was also a slit there releasing something shiny and it was just so hot - his heated flesh, was throbbing against my hand!

I held it, barely holding it before rubbing it up and down. I heard Jimin-hyung groaning and I stopped.

“Why did you stop, kook?”

“Does it hurt, hyung?”

“No, no, baby, it didn’t. It felt so good. Come on, clean hyung’s cock for me,” Jimin-hyung took my tiny hands and wrapped both of it around his pulsing cock, guiding me to move it up and down. “Faster, Jungkook,” Then, I heard it, the feeling of Jimin-hyung’s cock on my hands was so good, I felt the heat emitting from his cock oddly being absorbed by my body because I felt so hot despite being wet all over. Then, Jimin-hyung pulled me towards him, as if hugging me tightly then I felt something shoot against my pale chest, hot liquid dripping from the head of his cock and onto my chest. I heard Jimin-hyung groaning and grunting, and it made my aching small cock hurt even more.

“What is this, hyung, this white stuff on my chest?” I asked, touching it and playing with it in curiosity and that absentmindedly, I had it covered around my fingers and playing with my nipples.

“It’s called cum, it came out from hyung’s big cock because you played with it and made hyung feel so good,” Jimin-hyung explained but then he looked at me with such a different gaze as I played around with his cum, smearing it on my nipples. On my peripheral vision, I saw his cock move.

“Kook, you should promise hyung that you won’t tell this to anybody okay?”

“Huh, why shouldn’t I, hyung?”

“Because it’s bad,”

“Why is it bad when it felt so good?”

“You would know. One day. But just don’t tell, it will be just our little secret, right?”

I nodded. Then, I played with his cock was again, in love with the feeling of it on my hand. Jimin-hyung spoke, “Do you like my cock that much?”

“Yes, hyung, I’ve never seen a cock so big. It’s also my first time seeing other than mine.”

Jimin-hyung chuckled. “Hey, kook, say, you know how to lick lollipops, right?”

“Yeah, hyung, Mom always brings me lollipop when she stops by a candy store.”

“Then, imagine hyung’s cock as a lollipop and lick it,” Jimin-hyung commanded and as if I was hypnotized I held his cock and stared at it for so long, but my head slowly coming forward. “Come on, lick the tip,”

It feels alive in my hands, it’s growing, feeling so hot and big and my hands felt so full than ever. I obeyed Jimin-hyung, licking the tip like a lollipop. He groaned again, that must have meant that hyung felt good. “Kiss the head, Jungkook, kiss hyung’s cock.”

I did blew a kiss on the head of his cock. “Good boy, now put it in your mouth, suck on it like a lollipop.” Huh? “But hyung, it’s too big, I don’t think-“

Jimin-hyung held my head and positioned his cock in my mouth. He guided his cock into my mouth as I slowly took it. He grunted, he took my hands and made me hold his cock, I suck on it but it was making my mouth full that I can’t even take it halfway. I pulled away then gave it another try, this time Jimin-hyung was pushing himself in and I could feel my eyes were watery. “Hyung,” I garbled

Then, he pulled out. He sat down on the tub. “Come here, sit on hyung’s lap.”

I obeyed again, but Jimin-hyung positioned me where his cock lies in between my thighs. “Now, go move up and down, baby, then tighten your thighs between my cock.” I did what I was told I moved up then down with hyung’s cock in between my thighs. It looked bigger than my legs though I rode it as hyung urged for me to do it faster. But then, Jimin-hyung began to start moving on his own, pushing his cock in and out in the middle of my thighs, the soap making it more slippery and easier for Jimin-hyung to move faster.

He continued moving, then I heard him scream my name, “Oh god, Jungkook, I’m going to cum, yeah, hyung’s going to cum in your thighs,”

And he did, coming all over again, spurts of white landing on the both of our chest, on his abs and on my thighs.

“God that was good.”

“Will we get to do it again, hyung?” I asked.

“As long as you keep our secret, don’t tell this to anybody.” He winked, before we proceeded to wash our bodies. Jimin-hyung said he’ll just wash the both of us because it would take long since I washed his body so slow.

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After that, Jimin-hyung treated me with ice cream and bought me a toy gun. I asked him if he has one already, he said yes. I asked if I could borrow it but he didn’t say yes and told me that his was dangerous since it was real.

And like Jimin-hyung promised, we did it again, but he said it was going to be the last because he’ll have to go somewhere in a few days. “Are you going to come back for me, hyung?” I asked, while I was sitting on his lap, while he was sitting on the tub.

“Of course, I would always come back to you, baby boy. So wait for hyung, okay?” Jimin-hyung smiled

“Okay, hyung, Jungkook will wait for you!” I said to him.

And then he did something that had me at shock. He pressed his lips against mine, then smiling back at me after.

I didn’t really get at it first, but after years of waiting for him, I’ve realized that Jimin-hyung was deployed to serve the army. That’s why he had to leave, because he had to serve the country. But like I had promised to him too, I would wait for him to get back. It was years later, when I came home from school, there were a lot of people spreading rumors and I heard that Jimin-hyung was back. I told myself: finally I would see him again! I was expecting him to be a lot hotter, to be more handsome and sexy.

Never did I expect him this cold, this so lifeless…never did I expect to see him return to me in a coffin. He returned to me, but he didn’t tell me that when he does, he’s gone.

His soul was gone.

I cried against the glass separating me from him while he's there beneath the coffin, hyung was lying lifelessly in his uniform and the gun that he said he had was laid right with him.

Until now, I still remember him—still remember Jimin-hyung and I still miss him, and even cried at middle of night night upon the reality that he was gone. As I grew up I’ve also come to the realization that Jimin-hyung meant special to me, that I didn’t know back then I was falling in love with him. No man in my life had ever surpassed Jimin-hyung in my heart - he was still there even after all these years. He still has my heart. All the days I spent with him, helping him with his work, playing with him, eating ice cream it all summed up that — Jimin-hyung was my first love.

And I was still deeply in love with my first love.