why ?

only one qsn why is it so ??

do you have regret in your life??

i now wish I had never met you in my life ...

previously I thought that I am blessed to meet you but it was just opposite...now I am regretting knowing you ....

when we were small , i dont understand feelings .. only focused on my study i dont feel anything at that time ...but when we were in different classes I always feel empty inside. i wasn't happy as before ....I tried to understand what is wrong with me ...i share it with my friend, and I came to know that I was habituated with your presence....but as time passed ,we talk less to each other ...i always try to talk with you but I felt that you were avoiding me ...after that I don't even try ...but after some yrs someone told me that you were in love with me so you were not able to face me so you were avoiding ne at that time ... idk why I was happy listening that words ...after that time I started to care about your feelings...but you went to city for further study not even a goodbye ...i was so much sad that you left without a goodbye. ...not even a word ...but I console myself that 'you went for good study ..and don't have time to say anything so you went without saying'...but I was totally wrong ...your friend give me a letter of your written for me ...i was happy receiving letter but ...but ....when I opened my letter I started to cry so heavily inside noone ever knows...if you are reading this you better know what was in that letter ...after that I decided to forget you ...

but some time after you come back ..all my friends thought that you have liked me and they even tease me with your name ...but they don't know i was smiling with heart break ...i never told them about that letter coz they have always respect you ,they have considered you as their friend ....

but they started to hate me inside which I can feel coz they thought that I have always ignored your feelings ....

now I am in bachelor level of my studies but I can't even forget you ...now I thought that I have always liked you from my childhood...but when i remember that letter I thought I would hate you ...but do you know what's wrong with me , i can't even hate you ...the more I try to hate you the more I hurt myself ...

now you are happy with your girlfriend...i try to forget you but I am not able to ..i even deleted all the contacts of you to forget about you but i still can't ...i dont know what should I do ?? i can't forget you ...i can't even hate you ..i still like you with my whole heart ...but i cant confess you coz you already have girlfriend and I can't consider you as my friend coz my feelings don't allow me ...now I have regreted to know you. ...if I don't have met you may be i won't like you so much ...

everyone have their own hurting story in their life and they thought that it is special...this is my story of my life ...

what should I do now ?? can you guys help me who are reading this give me some solution what I should do now ?? please help me ...