It's hard.
Surviving every single day.
Today, I seriously felt like dying somehow.
It's so hard thinking about the future.
I'm too young for this.
I'm really too young for this.
I feel like talking it all out with someone.
But,
I guess it's better not to talk about anything, to anyone.
I'd rather say, "I'm fine". Rather than talking all the shits going inside my head.
Something is going inside my head.
I know what is going inside my head.
But I don't have the words to explain it.
I just wanna run away from everything.
Studying is hard, I can do it if I tried they say, and so I did, I tried my best, but the results aren't so good. They aren't enough. Not enough for anyone. My parents were disappointed in me but didn't show it just so I wouldn't feel bad. Heh, but I'm. I'm disappointed in myself.
My loved ones, I'm loosing them, people are leaving me, I wanna leave the remaining before they leave me.
It hurts, my heart hurts.
I just atleast want to forget everything, all of it.
I'm happy that I've met my friends online, but they are leaving. One by one.
So, to my friends who kinda feel like I'm leaving them, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry to the ones i hurt.
I'm sorry, really sorry.
If you read all the way here, you sure wasted your time.
Well, goodbye.
Have a great time!^^
