Dear My Lovely Mrs. Rain,
Hello, Mrs. Rain. it has been a long time. would you think of me as a silly man if i ask how are you now? 5 years is such a long time for us. I received your letter last month. honestly, my heart beats so fast. i don't know it was because i was afraid or felt guilty.
I miss you everytime it's raining. I miss you when I was using my umbrella. and i miss you when i realized that i am in the place that far from you. I miss you with my entire being. ardently.
After i finished reading your letter, i feel happy and relieved that you decided to move on. still, i need to tell you the truth. and i want to tell you what i feel all of this time since the first time we met until the moment i wrote this reply to you. you deserve to know...and i want to live without holding back anymore especially after you decided to let me go and become happier.
the first time we meet, i only felt curious why you stood alone in the middle of rain. not long after i heard about the news about your family. the second time we met, i became worried about you. the dark circles under your eyes make you look sadder. i felt sorry for you. and 3 months later, we met for the third time. near your house in a rainy day. I used my favorite black umbrella that day and I lent it to you. we promised to met again in the same place on the next rainy day. i am happy we became closer after that. I think of you as my best friend. as the little sister that i never have. I found a family in you.
Spending times with you are my solace. one of my happiest day i ever had. and suddenly you become the most important person to me. Do you remember my 22th birthday? it's the best birthday for me. when my real families are too busy with their own life, you came to celebrated it with me. you look like a Goddess to me and on that day I realized about something that change our life. The way you look at me. it is as if you look at your lover. your romantic partner and it made me felt guilty. the love we feel for each other are the different kind. to me you are my family but to you i am your life. your romantic interest. i didn't know what to do at that time and i was so stressed and felt so useless. i can't bear to break your heart. i didn't know what will happen if i break you heart. i don't want to lose you. So, I pretend to knew nothing.
when my indifferent father came to me with job opportunities at other country, i choose to take that chance. I...ran away. like a coward. when you asked me about us and future, i gave you vague answers at that time. i hoped that you will move on and forget me so that i didn't need to break you heart or deny your feeling to me anymore.
That's why I want to answer your question in letter, Do I share my umbrella with someone special now? The answer is yes. I met someone here. I fallen in love with this one woman. she is cool, strong, and a tomboy. like to wear tshirt and short pants. but she take my breaths away everytime she smiles or look at me. she is my family now. marry her is the best decision i ever made in my entire life. I am so happy right now.
That's why I want you to be as happy as i am now. with the one that can love you much more than i do. romantically. Under the umbrella I swear that you will always the familiy that i love the most and my pillar. This is my farewell to you.
Bye bye Mrs. Rain...
Farewell to the Rain that always stay by my side at my worst moment and the Rain that protect me from the sadness. Love you my family from the under the umbrella...
