It feels so bad ...........ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I wish I could rip my heart out of my chest so it stops paining....one day I'll die and no one will remember...why does it hurt so much? I wish I could tell someone how I'm feeling...how badly my heart aches for not getting the same treatment I gave to people... I wish someone could treat me the way I deserve ... I don't wanna be always crying and begging people to stay with me ... even if I think not to beg or cry I can't do that because people always leave me... I'm just 17 but already got all this betrayal.. betrayed by my friends and my loved ones ... maybe I'm too ugly to live this life maybe I don't deserve it.. crying till midnight doesn't do anything it just makes me sad .. every time I think today will be a better day the whole day is ruined...I wish I could cry louder but I don't want someone to tease me for crying loudly...I wanna cry louder I want everyone to listen to how I'm feeling inside...I do wanna love myself but my face is just too ugly to be loved...
I'm too ugly to be loved...
