So i choosed......( sigh )
ᕙ( : ˘ ∧ ˘ : )ᕗ SCIENCE
in 11th grade...
💀BUT .... math's was there too aaaaii can't be helped
after 10th we supposed to choose another school/college
😀 remember i said about one SIR WHO WAS CONCENTRATING ON OUR GROUP!. THAT SIR SUGGESTED 1 COLLEGE 3 FRNDS MOVED TO THAT COLLEGE WHICH SIR SUGGESTED ME (XYZ);-; AH IT'S I WILL TAKE THERE FIRST NAME OF LETTER 💀DBS( me nd those 2frnds of mine....
🙂1ST REGRET OF MY LIFE CHOOSING THIS CLG THAT RUINED MY LIFE!!! ( sigh )
+ i took science TvT (💀 rip )
my those 2frnds got bf's
i just made 1frnd in that clg she was all rounder o.o beauty, talented,good player(sports) good student"-" luckily she didn't have any bf but she got many proposals( ehee kinda scared where she will get some bf )
And this period of time my life went outta my hand TwT
i didn't had any dream......wait i had dreams but when i was young? till 5th grade xd.
Then frnds changed..... teachers we're not that good
introvert lvl 100 l0l ......i just dunno what i need to do that time
tik tok was still on exists in India & that time i saw BTS so kinda obsessed with them then
C DRAMA ( yea my first c drama was "my little princess it was sooooo good! )
then games, i play mlbb ( not regular;-; )
one day i started to watch one c drama ( LOVE020 ) Oh man🤌🏻 that was so good cuz of that fanatsy
(🤣😂 wait ik I'm funny i just thought maybe i can find someone like that TvT eh now it's embarrassing -/////- )
i searched some online games where we can chat+ play games together but i bumped into another app ×_× ,well that app is only for chatting with online friend's there 50-50 i really dunno how innocent i was like 😒 eh trust me i really dunno any bad word's all i learned through online jeez even i dunno the meaning of "fuck" ( again embarrassing -_- -/////-)
i just want to say that all bad word's i learned from online frnds (─.─||） that's it then ...
i learned many life lessons too (huff now i feel like if i was my old self people would've crushed me into pieces damn)
i still miss some friends those memories are awesome! it's refreshing but nothing stays similar all changed now 🙃
but some friends are still in contact that's good then ..........ehee I'm kinda shy to say it (^～^;)ゞ
about my crush?ehee
like till 16 year's of my life i didn't had any bf so dunno anything about relationship stuffs
୧( ˵ ° ~ ° ˵ )୨ but i recieved many proposal's! but didn't expect any one xd of course common dialogue now, i used to say
😌✋🏻eh no I'm not interested in relationship
oh sorry i don't like any boy rules on me
i don't want.....tgem to do etc etc blah blah blah ( why it sounds like i have attitude?😂)
🥲THE MAIN REASON I DON'T WANT TO BE IN RELATIONSHIP WAS
1 (-_-;)・・・ mom dad fyts a lot it's damn annoying even i feel like y did they got married 😒 it's love marriage duh
2 😂🥲 scared of mom
🙂🔪but i met a boy online at beginning i was protecting him 😒😂 because my friend was teasing him
👀but he started to text me i don't remember exactly about what
we had good conversation. then 1 day he started to spam my name in pm like it was crazy ( not lying i kinda liked it ehee )
then it was night time damn he lied a lot at beginning 😂
like he said I'm from Africa (i didn't care i still talked with him like how i used to be ) he was tricking me ᕙ( • ‿ • )ᕗbut he failed
nd later ( i just remember this )
i said if u were in india u could've watched the beauty of moon nd he said (🔪🙂 i don't remember the exact line but ) yea even I'm watching the moon(?) ig that time he said I'm from india too ...then we had conversation idk wt it was about 👀 suddenly he said he has feelings for me...
i was like -.- how can boy's say they has feelings for other so soon...nd yea i was confused too
(´-﹏-`；)cuz yea uk i have many reasons to like him (like i was calculating abt him😂?)
1 the way he talks to me i like that
2 he determined to his goal
3 he wasn't like other boy's ( anyways not all boy's are same but 99% some boy's has same thought -.-?)
i took 3 month's (-_-;)・・・to confirm that i have feelings or not
he said to me to download telegram there we can text nd he also said don't use this online app it's kinda addictive u will take a lot time to get rid off it actually that's true then we started to txt we didn't talk about 3 month's then i suddenly msged him
he was like hey u still remember me i thought u would've forget me easily, like how!? dude YOU!! 🔪( damn he teases me a lot -_-)
even till today i remember his tele I'd tho it's kinda big name ^-^"
then again he said he has feelings i was like again blank dunno wt to do ,so i said i don't want to be in relationship & yea he is good at blackmailing tbh,then even he said even i don't want to be in relationship
i was like like r u kidding me!??? ( confused af )
i just ignored that moment nd i said
i have feelings for u too ( trust me i was sweating a lot to say this aaaaaaaahhh i dunno damn -_- but he reacted normally -,- )
👀nd it's match season in india ( i don't wanna say about our conversation cuz i don't remember xd i just remember few that's it ) and after that we (＠_＠;) we talked all night till 4 or 3 am
😒 damn even i was sleepy i said many stuff's too i don't remember now i just remember his dialogue* EVERYTHING IS FAIR IN LOVE *
but he was STUBBORN!!!HE was like say me *I LOVE YOU* THEN ONLY I WILL SLEEP OTHERWISE NO!
even I'm damn shy to say this (^～^;)ゞ
anyways after that i started to love his stubborness (sigh)
that was last, we didn't talk much later on
(NOTE:- I WAS 16 YEAR OLD ND HE WAS 19 WHEN WE MET BUT HE WAS TURNING 20 damn he didn't even said me all day that it is his b'day at ending i mean in the night time he said i was like ehhh whyyyy didddddd uuuuuu saidddddd soooooo laateeeeee (｡ŏ﹏ŏ) nvm)
then ........i was like crazy for him -.- mmm i was waiting all day to his reply...his response became late then he started to msg 15 day's later 1 month later 3 month's later nd 🔪🙂6 month's later by this action i need to lose my feelings ryt!??? but no it's still same i was waiting for some events to wish him but that he might talk just hoping then it was mm ig 2021 year I'M confused....mmm but it was new year i was soooo happy to wish him indeed i wished him a new year with all my heart .......but idk wt he talked ( i don't remember TwT )..... i started to cry madly?¿ like he made me cry ? why was i so sensitive....( sigh ) nd yea skip that ಥ_ಥ i was into him anyways think in another way like if i committed too 😒there is no chance that i can be with him forever of course cuz of mom I'm fucking sacred of mom , i don't want to be in relationship either ,then y I'm i so obsessed with him? jeez then to get rid off him i mean my feelings for him i started to play games more
( 😂oh yea i totally forgot i passed 12th without writing main exam thanks to covidᕙ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ᕗ )
i started to talk with other's nd eh i thought if i date someone i might loose feelings for him(• ▽ •;) so i....i did another mistake ahaa it was August month i started dating that guy i got tired for 3rd day( yeaa it's online tho hahaha) (ー_ー゛) nd to get rid off him i took 3 month's 🔪🙂 bruhhhhhhh
but the guy i dated he washed my brain so cleanly about my crush🤌🏻 ( i was not well that day kinda sensitiveTvT ) i actually thought that's true that- that day (´-﹏-`；) it was September 7 😒i still regret but i talked with my crush very badly ,then in the end i should SHUT UP RIGHT ?!! NO I SAID I HATE U SO MUCH wait i said this cuz he said i wanna FK u (-_-;)・・・ so i said that dialogue nd yea even my crush wanted the same thing he wants me to block him,he wants me to stay away from him, cuz he do some ( illegal ) work which might affect me in future....nd he said hate me more :) then atleast i could've shut my mouth that time i said *i lost feelings for u don't text me again!* ( y did i said TwT *don't text me* tho he won't text me in future do i have to say that TwT) then he said take care of yourself.
that's it........ yea! wait 🙂🔪i said GET LOST (🥲)
nd he said Y DON'T U GET LOST.
I left his text on seen didn't texted after that
🙂i bursted into tears ah i was crying.. crying ...crying ....all thought i wasn't well so i was crying but i was crying for him '-' ( 1st time crying for a boy ;-; ) yea that's last we didn't talked anymore it's been a 1 year +2½ month 😒 i still stalk him till today
🥺i wanna say sorry 😐 cuz i said him* bastard * i shouldn't said that i dunno how much i hurted him just wanna say sorry :( to him
anyways we can't talk anymore, how we used to be , the person i like just vanished....( sigh) nd he is a new guy now it's waste to have feelings for him ....
but I'm focusing on my studies now i hate to date -_- cuz of that guy which i dated aissshhh nvm
then suddenly i rememberd my crush tele( bruuuhhh it's 12:30am ) 😐 but yesterday night when i stalked my crush tele I'd in bio he written
* I Miss You More Than I Remember You *
🥲🤌🏻 idk y it made me happy at the same time sad i was getting trouble to asleep
😂 wondering who is that *YOU*
like ik maybe I'm not maybe wt if he dated another girl after getting away from me 💢but still whoever is that * YOU* hope she fall sick 😒 I ain't jealous...but he never mentioned any such things in his bio in past so many month's-_-) it's only motivation stuffs in other language i mean in Latin 😒
i was surprised 😗he wrote that stuff ah 😒 I'm fucking jealous
till now i didn't mentioned about my bestie ( ´◡‿ゝ◡`)cuz she need's to be a whole new chapter not to be in middle of the story!-.-
( ╹▽╹ ) OMAAII ( ah! i just rememberd something )
(☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ next chapter i will introduce my only one Bestie<3
ヘ（。□°）ヘ( DUKING NERVOUS I'M ) <------ i will say WHY I'm like this now c ya then!
<(￣︶￣)↗ BUBYEEE~
