Our story began when you took my hand with a smile on your face. And I quickly felt warmt as I fell in your embrace. You were able to take my first and last dance that I surely wont ever forget in my lifetime
Im a girl that has some of the things that other desires. Brains, but some say I also have the skills, talents and looks but Im not that confident to be able to live up to it. Yes, I also have low self esteem and pride. I always make it to the top in our class in junior high but never the first but Im still glad. I may have all this but I was always unlucky when it comes to love. I already went through a lot of heartbreaks and I lost myself countless of times just because of a guy, unbelievable right?. But, truth be told I am also at fault, and mostly because Im not the girl they are looking for. I swore that I would not be involve with the matters about Love ever again.
Until one afternoon, everything changed, my eyes was fixated upon you, while ignoring what is happening in my surroundings. It felt like time had stopped, my mind went blank and even the voice of my bestfriend was not heard. You were just playing your favorite sport where you were one with the ball. You played like a pro for me and I was so amazed by it. While playing, you would make this cute faces all of a sudden. I thought it was just admiration I felt at the moment but as time passed by. I keep on longing for your presence. As I asked myself, *what is wrong with me?*
I even made up a lot of excuses just to see you. It was the first time in my entire life. I made effort to go out at recess and lunch and walk slowly as I pass by in your class, while my eyes quickly search for you. My day wont be complete without having to gaze upon you. And the funny thing is I would even drag my bestfriend to come with me to the toilet just to go out and look for you. I realized that I was already driven crazy and that this is the cause of the feelings I have for you which I am scared to admit.
Finally, I talked to my bestfriend and of course she was so excited to hear about it and even teases me. Not a day would pass withour her teasing me and giving out hints to people and you. But sadly, I've found out that you liked one of my classmates, even though you have no chance, you still made effort to get her. The day that I was filled with jealousy is when you have given her a present for valentines day, I felt my heart would crack but I couldn't show any emotions or else I would just be embarassed to say that I am really inlove with you.
A month has passed and more people closest to me have known about it and one of them is my friend Jeremy. Even though our conversation were mostly about you, we were still enjoying it cause it was fun, at the same time Im able to spend time with my beloved friends. I always talk about you in front of my friends cause you make me happy and you give me confidence.
One day, I finally decided to confess my feelings to you through a message but unfortunately just as expected I received a very painful reply. I accepted things as they are but still I know the fact that Im still hurt by it.
Atlast, the day that everyone were waiting for. It was the day of the junior high night. Everyone were expected to express themselves beautifully and enjoy the day. I was anxiously preparing what to wear, what to do, and what to expect, gladly my sister helped me. The event started and it was almost over as people enjoyed every second of it. The time came where people would ask a person to dance with. I quickly looked for you while hoping and imagining a moment together. But my world had stopped as you walk towards the one you love and asked for her hand. Unexpectedly, she didn't reject you and held your hand as you walk in the center then you started to dance. I couldn't gaze long upon the two of you so I ran to the comfort room and tried to held back the tears that was about to fall, and just by the image of the two of you together in my mind, I was planning to go home right away or not come out anymore until the event has ended.
While sobbing inside the CR with the door closed, someone came and knocked. I opened it and was shocked to find Jeremy in front of me. I fixed my posture and gaze upon him unknowingly. He cleared his throat and asked me if I was okay. Before I could respond he wrapped his arms around me as he patted my head and told me that everything will be okay and his words that shocked me the most and moved me were "Dont worry, you have me. I might not be him but I will try my best to make you happy and I will surely give back the love you deserve. Without making a single promise cause I will show you through my actions not my words".
I was speechless at the moment cause I could not process my thoughts well. Also because everything happened so fast.
Shockingly he fulfilled every girls wish that night. His words were *if I were to ask you to dance with me, would you accept?* I felt my heart beating so fast so I just responded with a nod. We slowly went back and ignored everyone. He took me to the center and held my hand as his other hand held my waist. We moved while we follow the music as we entered our own world. I gaze upon him as his eyes were fixed to mine. My cheeks unconciously heat up and I was embarassed even though we were very close, at this moment we showed that we were very shy and were unable to express ourselves well and also the emotions swallowing us. Even if we dont mention it, both of us know that this is the best way to express and convey our true feelings. As the music were almost at end. I realized that a chapter of our story had just begun.
The end.
~Xiaoya17♡
(Disclaimer: cover picture is not mine, credits and appreciation goes to the owner)
