I'm Annie, the only child of Soberano family. I've always wanted to have a sibling because of my envy towards my classmates who has sisters and brothers so that is why I have long keep on pestering my mother to give me a younger sibling. I wished and wished until it finally came true.
I felt so happy since the day of her birth. I even screamed in excitement upon seeing her, my dad scolded me a bit cause I almost caused her to cry again. I was so inlove with her cause she's so tiny, cute and I just wanted to pinch her soft and chubby cheeks so much but it would hurt her so I restrained myself. I can't stop smiling that day especially when my mother let me carry her for a bit, I swore that day that " I'll protect her for the rest of my life".
Me and Anna have always been together, in playtime until bedtime. When Anna was growing up, I've always spoiled her cause I just love her so much. If she does crazy things and create a mess, I always take the blame for her cause I hate seeing her get scolded by our dad...what I hate the most and one of my weakness is seeing her cry even if she has always been a cry-baby. My toys that she liked, I gave it to her cause just seeing her happy would be my happiness. If someone bully her, she go to me and then I'll defend and avenge her. Mom and Dad became fond of her also because of our differences.
However, everything changed when we were in our teenage years. Mom's rule was to give us our own cellphones if were in highschool. So I was so excited, cause I will be receiving mine soon. I can't even fall asleep just thinking that after my 1st day of school, they will give me a phone. I worked and studied so hard in academics just to be an honor student in middle grade, cause somehow it would make them proud. Yet, the even that unfolded was very different from my expectation. They have bought a phone for Anna, while they told me to wait for a bit. She still wasn't in highschool, so I asked them why. They told me that Anna, was convincing and pestering them all the time so they bought one for her first. That was the time I started asking myself, "What about me?", but it was useless asking that question so I just buried it deep into my heart. I felt so much pain in my chest that day and my attempt to endure and stop my tears from falling. I hated then scolded myself cause I felt hate and envy towards Anna and that was wrong...she is my sister and I should be loving her.
Our mom and dad are both working and would arrive home at night. When were having dinner, they always ask how's Anna's day have been while I just stay quiet and keep on eating. They ask me sometimes but the tone was different from the gently one that they use on Anna. So my replies were short cause I know that even if I tell them everything that has happened in my day, they still won't be interested. They somehow started giving all their attention to Anna, thats when my grades started to go down. I couldn't focus and I have lost my inspiration and passion to study well. Everytime I go home, I go straight to my room and use my phone...I type the things and events that had happened in every day of my life. My phone became my bestfriend and only companion. In every word I type, about what I have been carrying on my shoulder, my tears wanted to fall but I wouldn't let them.
Anna and me are the ones left at home so were also the ones that mom and dad trusted to maintain it such as managing and cleaning it. I even printed a schedule for the house works so that things wouldn't be unfair if only one person will do everything. But sometimes, when Anna doesn't follow... I scold her then she just locks herself up in her bedroom. When our parents arrive and see that no one had done the chores, they always blame me...then they go upstairs and fetch Anna, saying nice words and promises just to have Anna go down. It hurts to think about it but maybe this is just the life of the Older Siblings, I questioned myself.
Time passed by, Anna was now catching up to me. It then leads to her having the things that I should have been the one receiving. Praises and compliments from auntie's and uncle's cause she's an honor student. They even gave her gifts, those are the things that I never experienced. Maybe Anna is just the better kid? Smart, Talented and beautiful. Yet, I was also composed of those things but why is Anna the only one getting noticed?.
One day, Anna and I fought because of a necklace. This necklace was given to me by our parents when I was still an only child, and when their attention was only given to me. This is the last present I have received from them so I treasured it so much and kept it yet Anna went through my things and found it. She wanted to take it to herself, I told her that she already has a lot of accessories so why does she have to take this too?. She always gets what she wants so she expected that I would just give her this one too. I told her that our parents bought it for me.
She refuted and said, "then ask them to buy you another one" as she rolled her eyes at me. My blood boiled at her attitude and I couldn't control my anger anymore so I replied, "you want me to dig your eyeballs out!?". As I said those words, mom and dad went into the room. I think they might have heard our loud voices when they arrived. They were angry and immediately went near Anna to comfort her while turning to me and said, "you would fight with your sister just because of a stupid necklace!?". I did not even bully Anna and was just trying to discipline her. I was so angry at their words and wanted to slash at them saying that they shouldn't have given birth to me if the only child that they would treat as theirs is her.
They calmed Anna down and told her that they would buy her a new one, "the one they should comfort was me" I thought to myself. But Anna doesn't want to compromise so they took the necklace from me and told me to just let her borrow it. I didn't want to let go of it because it's the only thing left that keeps on reminding me that my parents still love me but just because of my own sister, there was nothing left to remind me.
I locked myself in my room and typed all the things that I was keeping inside and at the same time, I typed the questions that I need answering.
"what about me?"
"do they still love me?"
"why do I feel like an outcast in my home?"
"why do I seem like a stranger to them when they should be the one knowing me the most?"
I woke up early and went straight to school. My mind was a mess and my thought were just flying through space. Until dismissal came and I wanted to clear my mind so I decided to just take a walk instead of taking a ride. The truck caught my attention when I was about to cross the road. At this exact moment, I thought that maybe it would make my parents happy if Anna would be their only child. I walked a few steps and stopped at the middle..I then closed my eyes and smiled knowing that my pain and suffering will soon be gone with me. The things that happened after that, I didn't even notice cause the only thing that I could see was the blue sky that is slowly being swallowed by the darkeness.
Hi! Its me Anna, I killed my sister. They have brought her to the hospital including her belongings, and there I saw her phone...there was nothing else important, no diary, and no valuables. The one who crashed into her said that she was the one who stopped in the middle of the road and that he didn't have time to step on the brakes or slow down because the time for people to cross was already over. So I kept on asking myself, "why!?", "why did she do it!?". I thought of looking through her belongings and her phone to know the reason why. But the only thing you can find was the truth that could break multiple hearts. The story that I have told was hers.
I blame myself for everything, including the reason why she is now in a coma. Every word I have read, it pained my heart, I should have changed. I should have showed her how much I love her. I shouldn't have take our parents all to myself. I shouldn't have kept her away from our parents eyes. Then, maybe she wouldn't have turned out this way.
I know you wouldn't forgive me but I am really sorry Annie. Things might be too late to ask for your forgiveness, but please don't give up on us, on me, on mom and dad. We love you so much Annie, as I held her hand in mine.
I sat down beside her, and whispered," I love you, Annie" as I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.
The end.
~Xiaoya17♡
(Disclaimer: cover photo not mine, all credits and appreciation belong to the owner.)
