Everyone has a friend or a family member who's lost someone close to them and you don't know the person and they're crying and your trying to comfort them but you don't know what to say because it's never happened to you, you can't comfort someone correctly if it's never happened to you and just a few months ago my girlfriend's brother died and I tried and tried comforting her but it was to no use I couldn't do anything because I didn't know how it felt to loose someone I didn't known that pain but just recently my uncle got into a car crash and they pulled the plug on him only now can I fully understand what she must've been going through because now it's happened to me and it feels the worst this feeling feels worse than being cheated on worse than a break up worse than actual physical pain that feeling of knowing that someone close to you is gone suddenly they're just gone there was no goodbye you just wake up thinking it'll be a good day then your whole world crashes down knowing you'll never be able to see them again you'll never be able to touch them see those features of them that you completely adored see that personally that you always wake up to and feel happy even if they're teasing it hurts worse than anything it makes you not want to go anywhere it floods your mind and makes you incapable of most things and then it feels worse when people who have never delt with this say to suck it up and it can't be that bad just get over it they don't understand and it makes you enraged and sorrowful at the same time you usually start to fail classes you half as* chores you can't seem to do anything right you just want to lay in your bed and either sleep the pain away or ball your eyes out most of the time it's a mixture of both but what I'm trying to say here is that if this has never happened to you and you think it's no big deal just wait until it does it will ruin everything.
