whenever I think about that day sometimes unknowly a sad smile appear on my lips & some times my eyes become moist , sometimes I laugh but what I more feel is regret ....
Regret of seeing him, Regret of loving him, ....
That day
we finished our assembly & now we're going back to our classes. I'm absent minded from morning as cause of some reason I was wearing my shoe & all students Made a single line from corridore to their classes I just randomly looked up & my eyes freeze at his eyes I'm mean I neither see his face nor him but just looked at his eyes...
They are like a deep blue ocean which are attracting me to drown in it & I'm letting myself to drown in it..
They are intoxice which is making me groggy without any alcoholic thing..
I completely lost my self & my heart beat increasing with the every single second I completely drown myself in it...
My friends drag me into line & now his back is facing my face & I'm draging unknownly towards him wherever he's going I'm following him & mistakely I was about to go in his class but my friend stop & she said its not our class dumbo & she take me in our class ..
It's the most memorable & regrettable day of my life.....
I always stare at him from far cause I don't have the courage to confess his cause I made my mind from starting that I'm okay with one sided love...
But with the every single day passed these feelings are getting deeper & more deeper...
one day I got to know that he's a playboy & he already know about my feelings but still acting like innocent but I'm happy that he don't have any interest in me cause I'm afaird of heart breaks..
Now it's been almost 8 months & I think I didn't completely forget him..
I think now what if I stopped him that day & confessed my feelings to him
what if I went to that way where he's waiting for me
what if I accept his request on ig
what if I done things according to my heart
what if I accepted my love for him
then was I'm free from regret?
I thought that on the last day of my school I'm going to say him good bye
but he already left the town
I regret not stareing him for the last time
I regret not looking at those adorable eyes
I don't want him or his love but I just regret of not saying him good bye.....
Now I have to stay alive with this regret I think for the rest of my life
cause our fate already take us far from each other & now I don't think there's a way to meet him again....
