I know I did wrong making the first move..but I just want to date someone...(flashback)*** My first kiss I was in highschool..then second..with my cousin..then with my friend (girl/female)..cousin (same)again..girl again..I thought I was bisexual..I didn't know what love was at that time..I assumed that if one says they love you even without reciprocal feelings that that was love..silly me ..I fooled them ...no it was pity..I pitied them...I faked the feeling just to have them close to me.
She thought it was love..but I never felt anything for her..I know am the worst but couldn't help it.I had no friends ..never partied like other people..an introvert is the word.
After 1year I realized that I was gonna regret what I was doing.i ended it!!***
(It's been 5months since break up)
We don't talk.i have tried meeting guys but I end up being too open on the first meeting.Am too honest when it comes self introductory part in a meeting.No one wants to try something new with me..I feel unwanted.. stamped on..in darkness..I get less attention ..just as an UNWANTED FLOWER
