Oh! dear how I wish I was there for you when you called for me and begged for me to return.
How I wish I could hold you close and tell you how beautiful and strong you look.
You just smiled the way you made me blush.
I love the way you are still holding onto my memories because you are keeping me alive.
I don't know for how long I have been away from you because you seems to have changed a lot.
Your eyes have lost those shine yet beautiful enough to make the rest of the world go blind.
You look gorgeous as ever but lonely as God.
You are doing great dear if I was you i would have been...
I saw you are drinking the coffee in the way I liked to drink , bitter and strong.
You are still waiting for me at the door even when you know that I am gone.
When I look at you i feel you are living the life of mine .
You look lost and broken but only I know how much I love you and I'll forever do.
I still see you looking at those photos of ours , sometimes smiling and mostly weeping.
You are again scrolling through our messages in the hope that I may reply to your texts even when you know that it is impossible.
How I wish to tell you "oh! dear don't you fear, i am always here ".
Sorry dear for leaving you there all alone with all the scares and broken promises.
l wonder why you are still wearing that ring which represent our love which is a tragedy.
I still remember the night when I held you close and whispered to you my fear , you pulled me close and kissed my lips taking away all my doubts and insecurity.
That was the happiest day of my life to tell the world that you belong with me and engrave my name with yours.
I never thought even in my wildest dream that i could find someone like you.
I loved you more than my life that I was scared to even to think my life without you.
I may be coward and selfish but dear only because of you and only for you.
You still listen to the songs we sang together , remember our nights when we spent dancing in the living room without a damn to the world , we were so happy and healthy .
You still read those letters of ours and poems that I have written only for you ...
You are crying again and i cannot lend you my shoulder.
You are still using that perfume which I loved and shampoo we bought together.
I still see you walking our dog on the park where we met by accident and in that park we created our little world with lots of surprises and love.
I am always beside you and near you but you will never know how much I miss you.
Sometimes you look up smiling as if you can see me than you look down when you can't hold the tears in your eyes.
There are many things I want to say but I cannot speak nor I can write to you.
I wonder when you are going to share that story of our's to the one you love.
I wanna know who will be that lucky guy to have you and love you in the way I never could.
I wonder when you are going to open up your heart for someone new .
I saw someone knocking at your door but you never took a glance, poor guy...
I never dared to hurt you but at last I was the one who hurt you the most.
I hoped to give you a better and peaceful life but our fate wasn't intertwined.
I still want to have you all to myself but i know i have to let you be happy.
Sometimes I pray to God for you to wake up and find everything as a dream but a beautiful dream .
Where everything was fine and everyone was happy.
I want you to find yourself and your happiness without my shadow in your life.
I don't know why but you still leave that left side of the bed for me to fill everyday.
You look so gorgeous even when you are asleep, sometimes blushing and weeping in your dreams.
I wonder who you are dreaming about and i am jealous if you seeing someone else.
See my possessiveness, it sucks and hurts.
There are times waiting for you to embrace and many possibilities in future to explore.
You need to open the windows and let the air in to the house and gives you freshness.
You need to get rid of all my belongings and my traces for you to welcome a new beginning.
My clothes that are piled up in your closet needs to be removed and my books needs to be somewhere else ...
My sweater that you are hiding under your pillow needs to be washed and my slippers that you are wearing needs to be thrown.
You need a new beginning and new life ahead of you... you will stumble or fall but i know you are brave enough to get up again.
There will be time when you'll be laughing in the way you have forgotten for the long time.
there will be time when you'll be smiling thinking of me and happy again.
There will be love and life around you .
There will be tears of joy and promising promises.
There will be light and there will be peace because you deserve it.
There will be little cute you and just remember i will bless you abundantly.
There will also be the time when you will start forgetting me and i will stop living.
My existence is in you and with you i will rest.
Seeing you happy and healthy is enough for me to bid my adieu, sayonara .
I know dear you are strong and brave...
I love you more than yesterday but less than tomorrow...
My love you will learn to love again...
