can you really abandon someone just because you're abandoned by someone else? how did everything turns out this way? for every summer, winter, and every second that has passed, you're still the only thing i'll ever know. so when you walked away, there's little to none that i have left in my heart. so tell me, why would you ever change your mind? what makes you capable of hurting someone who had their heart fully held in your hands? i kept thinking, that i might be the problem. i might be the reason why it all ended the way it did. but as time ran, i matured, and you stayed the egoistical you. why would you ever come back to me?
i never really asked for anything else. what i want was never spoken. i don't want anything to change, so i stayed silent. you're the only thing that lets me sleep at night. so i never thought that you'll be my worst nightmare as well. how badly hurt are you? i don't even think of love as something so naive and beautiful anymore. you thought me more things than i would like to know. will you ever say that you'll change, i know how well you wouldn't. because it's you afterall. you said the same thing again and again like a music in loop. those foul sweet words of you aren't going to fool anyone, you know? but im the bigger idiot. i can't say anything else to that. im fooled by the way you said it. you're a damned monster, and i wish i would've realized it sooner.
if you had decided to abandon me, then leave without leaving anything behind. go as far as you can and don't come back knocking at my door. i don't want you coming here like im the only one you'll ever need. your words had always win me over, but i don't want a second time. your actions speak louder.
