Have you ever wonder what is your existence for?like your just existing but not living. A world that only revoles in a four corner glass room, a never ending medication then estimating until when will you exist.
It is being ungrateful but, why did he made this existence when a sickness will robbed my life
I walked in my closet and saw the gift my mother prepared before for this day my 16th year. Its black glittering giftbox with a golden ribbon, and a letter, I open it, it contains a handheld mirror. My eyes feasted on the Victorian intricate design around it with a studded diamond stone running along its curves, I held it and see my own reflection. The sunsets rays and shred of silver from the diamond around the mirror dance in the fairest of my skin,
Many says I'm bless, miracle that im still surviving, is this they percieve a bless? Be able to exist with no life, I may had the existence but I wasn't able to live with it. My father always said that i should be grateful cause im stil kickin' that there's a lot person who want to live, but how will be grateful when im not contented
I put back the mirror in its box and get my violin beside it. I get started playing violin when I was seven. When i was a kid my mother used to play violin to get me asleep and I remember asking her to teach me cause I love too. I sat on my bed and started playing the violin. Its relaxing to hear its mellow and soft melody but a sudden knock interrupted , Caroline entered
"Hi! Happy birtday Cara, " the nurse, caroline vibrantly said, wearing Proctective clothes "Your now sixteen your growing up to fast" she said with a small smile
She's been the nurse looking for me since i dont know, maybe since i was dected with a SCID. I just shrugged my shoulder and she put a new sets of medicine on my tray.
"Ohh not in the mood but I had a news for you! you'll gonne have a room neighbor, they on their way" she said excitedly like my life would change, he opened the curtain at the right side where I can clearly see the next room, Well my room is made of glass that only curtains covers my room, to give me some privacy i guess but most of the time when my dad is visiting mu curtain is always open
At the thought of having 'room neighbor' is quiet unexpected cause i used to live in this hospital floor alone, My father were afraid that if I had a neighboring patient, I will get closer to viruses and bacteria, Well before I tried to sneak out of my room and happened to encounter a patient running, then there it goes I got infected by his virus that almost led me to death,
"That's sound ridiculous, as if father allows it" I answered playing with the string of my violin
"He did sweetheart, he already left with one choice, just dont try to sneak out again, we don't want to risk you, " She answer softly and held my face softly. Caroline is like a second mother to me, he treated me like her own,.
After done fixing my medicine Caroline went out of my room cause she need to attend his other patient from floor 2. Well im in the top floor of the the hospital the 16th floor to be exact. I dont even know how caroline manage to get here to get after she went from first floor, well as far as i know elevator is underconstruction
I busied my self creating a song. But everytime i tried to make up a lyrics i find something is missing.I been writing a song for almost years but now ,I find it hard to create one. I scrumpled again the paper and throw it. d*mn it, its getting me frustated, I roamed my eyes around my room to look for something that makes me inspire but my room is sure a mess I open widely the curtain and to my surprise its already dark, moon that reflects the river perfectly, the trees that dance with the snow and the city light that shine along the stars. A perfect scenery indeed. I walk to my table i got an idea
After spending a couple of hours creating a song, i decided to clean up self. I walk infront of a big vanity mirror. I already seen my reflection many times but i always find something was off. I recieve many praise from the doctors and nurses they even says im an epitome of beauty, well shaped face, a pair of amber almond eyes, celestial nose and a cupid bow lips. Slowly I untangled my hospital gown and let it goes down, with nothing left. The longer i stare at my reflection, the more I linger on my imperfection, those scars and how i hated them,
Most of them says my look are perfect but without them knowing My body is a full of imperfection, I smiled bitterly and trail my skin, a disgusting sight, I dont know why I couldn't appreciate my self, Its feels like this body is just borrowed that Im hiding because it will take away from me that fast.
I got shocked when my phone on the table at my side suddenly ring, i pick it harshly and I heard a low chuckle on the other line, gosh who the hell is this? Its definetly not my father
"Nice butt huh?" damn it, I got stunned I slowly looked back and saw a man sitting comfortably on his bed with a smirk written on his face, but his eyes seems like hypnotizing me he had a pair of onyx hooded eyes that got me kryptonited. there something in it that I cant understand, Its seems familiar. My eyes shifted to his jaw its well defined as well as his nose its perfectly Sculptured. My eyes darted to his lips it seems soft but the smirked on it grew bigger
"Done checking me out? " He said with a playful smirk and a low chuckle. Its like tha thick bomb that pop in my head and realize that im still naked,I hurriedly pick up a robe and closed the curtain. My heart thumped harshly, gosh what was just happened?
The phone ring again,that jerk I end it of and dive into my bed, damn! that kinda embarrassing, I yell my lungs out gosh I shouldn't be ashamed, he should be for peeping someone naked. The phone continue ringing gosh he's annoying me I calmed my self and pick up the phone
"What it is again" I asked in a monotone voice, But a famiar chuckle answered me
"[Why my daughter seems not in the mood] " my father said, gosh this is it again dealing with my childish dad, I didn't how my mother get along with him they are perfectly opposite, My father had this childish behavior who loves to joke around while my mother is Stoic, strict lady I never seen my mother and father being intimate with each other, gosh i cant imagine my mom being sweet its like, its not her, well my mom is soft when it comes to me but I can still feel the authority and the strict lady on it.
"[is that Cala?] " a small voice appears, probably my little brother, I guess father nodded to him and snatch the phone to my father well, I just heard my father groaned"[Hi Cala, Its your brother,, How are you? I miss you Cala,, Hope to se youu, I wanna play with you] "I chuckled a little I imagined my brother pouting lips
"Im fine swettie Its already late why dont you sleep, Its sunday tommorow you can visit me" I said in a sweet voice, My little brother is the male version of my mother. Azmeiur got my mother and father strong Features. he looks intimidating but hes so soft the Perfect oppsite of mine, well I got my parent soft features but my attitudes screams different
"[Okay, See you] " my brother cute voice answered and dad groaned I guess He throwed the phone on dad. Silly “[Hello my dear daughter, Happy birthday! You're getting older,But still no boyfriends Huh! Don't fall inlove with your neighboring room "
"Goshh dad, your spitting nonsense," I heared his laughed, He really loved pissing me off
"[Well I cant help it its your first time seing a boy other than me and your brother , And He's also good looking like me but im more]"
"Your being conceited Dad, you even look like hot potato" I backfired and smirked and before he can answer I turned it off, Then the telphone ring again, Well my dad will never accept being called Ugly, too childish, I didn't bother to answer it and decided to clean up my self
After cleaning up my self I dive into my bed . I get the remote and dim the light. I felt exhausted I was about to sleep but my phone suddenly beeped, Dad texted me
Well, I wouldn't argue to
you today Cause its your
birthday, but always Keep
on mind that your looks
Comes From me! So im
epitome (^_-) Like what
I told you no boyfriend!
Good night
Gosh my father really knows how to annoys me, remmembering that boy I felt pissed and embarrassed at the same time, I was too exhausted that I dozed off to sleep
To be continue! (^_-)
