this is exactly why i wanted our engagement to end.
all of the hints were there. i saw how you acted and how you were slowly drifting away from me, but you still wanted to keep our engagement until the end, only to cancel it at a time where i was at my lowest.
you, who i’ve known since we were toddlers, whom i’ve shared my deepest and happiest moments together, whom always have been there to lift me up whenever i’m down. you were always beside me and i’ve never felt safer than before. i trusted you with all my heart, only to find out you were going to stab me with a knife behind my back.
you, who smiled for another girl, a smile i’ve never seen you wore with me. you, who laughed like there was no tommorow with her, who you’ve hugged and shared moments of affection whenever possible. you, whom was in an arranged engagement with me, is now in love with another person. a person who made you shine brighter than i could ever made.
i saw those eyes. both of your eyes and her’s were the same; they screamed of how deeply your feelings for each other are. yet, when i tried to break off our engagement early, why? why did you refuse? why must you humiliate me in front of everyone? must you make me feel this way for her to be assured that i won’t disrupt your happiness? or was this all part of your plan?
were all these years we spent not enjoyable for you? were you not satisfied with what we had? were you not happy of the things we did together? was i a nuisance in your life from the very beginning? were you always planning to leave me? were all our memories together a lie?
so much questions were swirling in my mind, so much i wanted to speak up, but looking at how you’ve announced the end of our relationship whilst looking at your beloved; it was enough to make me go insane.
enough to make me humiliate myself more as tears cascaded down my face. i held my head high, forcefully putting a smile on my face as i bowed in front of you and your person. i could hear everyone’s whispers; some were pitying while others were mocking, but at this point i couldn’t care less. i just wanted everything to end.
you looked quite in pain when you saw my tears, but i didnt care about you anymore. our days together has ended. you have humiliated me and now i have to live with it for the rest of my life.
its the end for us.
