I went to Siren club for training of karate, there i met San for the 3rd time, and in that time one day we met on my guest house my mom was not in the guest house cuz she went to buy kata dress for me, so it was only me and San alone in the guest house, that was the day when San kissed me on my lips for the first time, both of us shy and and blushed, weren't able to talk with shyness.
Later that day while he was about to leave her held my head and kissed me again, that kiss was special, our lips touched each other's lips and we could feel each other's heartbeat. When I pulled back my lips, my saliva was on his lips and he started blushing, that was the best day for both of us, i couldn't believe that i got my first kiss and him too. Later that day i was going to dibrugarh with my karate team, for state tournament, while i was on the train i couldn't concentrate on the team i was just concentrating on the flash backs, i was touching my lips in disbelief, i couldn't text him cuz my phone was switched off and it was not possible to charge my phone in the train. It was night time. So that way i moved to dibrugarh the day i had my first kiss, next day i reach dibrugarh i was with my team and i was happy af, i couldn't describe how happy I was, After 2 days i had my state tournament, before the tournament me and my family spend some good time in dibrugarh, there was only 1day for my state tournament. That Day... i got a heartbreak and mental breakdown ...
The breakdown was so bad that i felt like no one deserves me and the world has no good people Left, That heartbreak had a impact on my tournament and because of that i lost the tournament, Later that day when I lost the tournament, i went to restaurant for a dinner together with my teachers,friends and family.
At That time i put my headown on the table of Restaurant and using my phone, texting him. As i was using my phone i started to cry silently, i didn't want anyone to see me i was crying cuz it would be so embarrassing.
My mom and sir saw me crying and said that "don't listen to people they will make fun of you if you lose but will be jealous of you in your win, but you'll come back stronger next time"
Yeah losing tournament was another heartbreak for me too, but that heartbreak that i recieved from the guy I loved was greater.
I still remember how i cried puting my head down on the table crying silently and unable control my tears, when I went to wash my face i could see my nose, cheeks and eyes were Red, and that was the when I started feeling hatred towards someone, I was a girl who was chill and never hated anyone, But that day i realised maybe no one understood my worth to make me this miserable.
Will publish Part II soon...
