"I hate myself for loving you too much"

(It's kinda long pls take time to read 'til the end)

Hi! I'm Eros montex serious all the time, woman hater that why my friends often call me gay.I do not give a time to love and especially to women, it's just a waste of time.

i hate my friends they always call me gay.

"Eroz chixs oh"

I did not bother to look back at what my friend taught me.

"Eng * t mo Drake Kita mong bakla yang kaibigan natin" Saad ni jhon at sinabayan ng tawa kasama ni Drake.

I stared at them with the thought that they had stopped laughing.

"Crazy" I salute my finger to them.

"Eroz look at Yun oh earlier if you look" said jhon.

"Yes, no" Drake said and stared at the woman. I just shook my head.

Nakakaasar mukang babae tong mga barkada ko. Nakakasawa puro nalang babae NASA bibig nila.

"Eroz are you dating Kaya?"drake suggested and approached me.

"Yes eroz you are just online games and work"

"Please know that your life is not mine" I said annoyed.

"Admit it because pre"

"So what?" I asked in astonishment.

"That you are gay" the two asked at the same time with the mixture of my face.

"How many times did you ask Yan?"

"I can't count" drake while holding the chin.

"NaSA 100+ maybe" was the skeptical answer of the two.

"F * ck you! Same question same answer" naiinis na talagang Saad ko "I'M NOT GAY" may emphasis na Saad ko.

Annoying over and over again.

"Okay You said so" they shrugged which I struggled.

••••

The next day after work we used to hang out in the store and play online games, even though I was annoyed with the two of them, I still went with them.

"Drake The b * b *"

"Mas b * b * ka jhon"

"The idiot of those with us" annoyed Saad by drake who scratched his head.

"Mana sila sayo" jhon teased.

Annoying with SA mobile legend tong dalawang to apart from the fact that they are always cheap Ng mura, annoying their noise.

"Oy chixs" Drake suddenly said and stopped playing.

"Where? Where?" Jhon said and looked around.

Femininity they really are very fast.

"I think they just moved" Drake said while looking behind me.

"Yes, sh * t Ang Ganda" when jhon's eyes shone.

bad look I threw at the two So they looked at me in amazement "why?" they asked at the same time.

"Tangina nyo Basta babae Ang bilis nyo kingina DEFEAT Tayo mga Bobo"

They looked at their cell phones and were just shocked.

"Kaasar naman kasalanan mo to drake" sisi ni jhon Kay drake.

"What am I you So kafal it still blame"

They just blame the two of them, so I started to get annoyed with the two of them again, they liked to knock.

•••••••

On that day, it started. All the changes in my life that I did not expect.

when I met Ashley she changed my life, She did everything just to get my attention.she f * cking irritated.

"Pst pre si Ashley" I looked at the woman approaching our place.

"If I were you, you'd be courted" jhon whispered and winked at me.

i clenched my teeth "will you start teasing again?" I threatened to promise that they both shook.

"Hi Eros." Ashley greeted me with a smile that I just nodded.

"Ay Wala man Lang hello?" He promised.

Here it is again, he will start teasing me again.

"Patience Mona Ashley" jhon said and winked at me

"Cge I'm the first" I said goodbye as Ashley cried.

"What town So I stayed here for you then you left"

My two eyebrows met at what he said. The two on our side stopped laughing.

"Sorry Ashley, mama ordered something"

"Okay come back ha" I backed away Suddenly he kissed me SA pinge.

"I looked at him in surprise"

"Cge una nadin ako boys" he said goodbye to the two "cge bye Eros" he smiled and said goodbye to me.

"See moba What I see pre?"

"No pre why is there a ghost SA next door?" Jhon asked Kay drake scared

"Stupid Eros is blushing" at the same time against drake Kay jhon.

"Oo NGA namumula ka pre" may pang aasar nang dalawang na ikinabalik sa SA sanin.

"It's up to you Jan" I annoyed I promised them and turned my back on them.

I was caught in my chest When it suddenly throbbed fast. It can't be. It's annoying because Ashley's skinny Yan, Where I am she is there, My tail is straight.

I did everything to avoid him so as not to fall for him but I can do whatever I do I fall.

.my friends knew that, I like ashley, they are not that stupid to think of it. I admit that Ashley is a sexy, pretty and intelligent, I won't stop from falling, because of her talkative side and being naughty.

Because with the help of my friends, Ashely and I became .I also flirted with him for almost 1 month.

"Yiehhh sanol may jowa" Drake said

"I already believe that Eros is not gay" I glared at him. Ashley laughed at the two of them.

Kaaasar both embarrass me.

I can't quite imagine how happy mainlove is, It's my first time actually, I can't imagine that I'm deeply inlove with Ashley.

"Our fun ah" drake teased me

"We love you so much ah" said jhon

I just kept quiet and ignored them.

i going to surprise ashley because this is our one year being together. actually we have a misunderstanding I want us to fix that, I can't afford to sleep that we are not okay.

I entered her condo with No knocking. I have the key to her condo, I really miss Ashley we are also five days We are not together because we are busy.

"Hap-py --- I stopped when I saw ashley kissing me. My chest tightened as I looked at the two of them, the grain of tears began to drip from my eyes.

I couldn't help but get hurt while watching them at the door kissing. They didn't notice me because they were busy kissing.

I want to punch his face but, I chose to stay while watching them kissing.My chest tightens and my tears don't want to stop from falling.

i left before they could see me and I might not be able to stop myself from killing the man she kissed.

when I came home my eyes still crying and I hate it.I punch everything I see. I can't help but to feel this pain of mine.

•••

the next day, I pretended not to have seen or found out anything.Its f * cking difficult to pretend but, I did all my best just to act nothing.

"Babe what do you want?" I asked.

"I'm not going home" he promised impatiently.

"We have not celebrated 1anniv.natin babe Kaya ngayon Tayo mag cecelebrate "pilit Ngiting Saad ko

"Eros let's go home I'm not in the mood"

"Babe Naman" I was really annoyed Saad ko.

"I don't feel like it anymore, do you understand?" He shouted angrily. So the people looked at us.

"The closer I get you cry"

I can't help but be hurt by what he expects.

"Pano Ang kulit kulit mo" angalit na Saad nya "makaalis na nga" he added and left me.

It's like someone stabbed my chest while watching her walk away from me.

I just wiped away my tears when it dripped.

I thought until she was just cold, I thought until then Lang, I thought we were fine but f * ck she wanted me to break up with her.

"Eros break na Tayo" he seriously promised.

"Ashley, don't do that! You love me, don't you? Did I do something ?pls babe don't joke about it because it hurts so much oh "I pointed at my chest at the same time.

"I don't want to Eros I'm tired of you"

"I'm also tired but I did not plan to divorce you because I love you so much"

"Don't make it complicated Eros pls let's break up" he removed my hand TO hold him and turned his back on me.

"No! Whatever you say Let's padin"

I was held by my chest As he continued to walk.

•••••

"Babe talk to me"

"Babe pls let's fix this"

"You love me, don't you?"

Panay I shouted outside his condo. I don't have Food and sleep yet So I'm a little weak now. I still do not accept that Ashley left me.

"Leave that Eros I Don't Love You" he went out the door.

"Pls babe back there pls" I begged while kneeling IN front of her.

"What is it Eros let go of me" he pushed me as I fell to the floor. "I don't see you anymore Dear okay?

••••••

"Babe talk to me pls"

I shout OUT of ashley's workplace. I carry The chocolate flower and tedy bear.

Stupid If stupid but I really love Ashley. If it is necessary that I beg to be healed and he comes back I will do it.

People are looking at me. They also started falling. The grain of water came from the sky.

"Babe pls talk to me pls" I shouted in their office but he didn't even plan to go to me. I was also wet from the rain. I also felt tired.

"Ashley pls comeback to me" I promised.

"What are you doing here?"

I was lifted to my knees By hearing Ashley's angry voice.

"Ashley sorry if I did anything pls come back to me" I promised hoarsely.

"Can that leave here eros. Are you really stupid ?Can't you see that I don't love you anymore? "he pointed.WE JUST PLAYED BEFORE, BECAUSE I HEARD YOU WOULD BE AWARE OF THE WOMAN I CHALLENGE SO I DID EVERYTHING TO MAKE YOU FALL AND I WON "she stopped and took My flower chocolate and teddy bear and stoned in front of me" I have a boyfriend you left "

it looks like I just want to die with the words released by ashley. why? all this time he just PLAYED with me?

I went up the stairs to follow him So he stopped entering.

He turned to face me angrily "You left" he pushed me and Unexpectedly he pushed me so hard I fell down the road and just in time there was a car coming IN my band, because it was raining and the driver didn't notice So I just closed my eyes and didn't move suddenly SoI waited to hit me.I close my eyes to the pain I feel. I can't move my arms and hands. But nothing hurts in my heart yet. When I see them, Ashley knows nothing while looking at me.

i thought Ashley will help me but, I was wrong she turn her back on me while I'm bathing my own blood.its hurt that she doesn't care about me.

I heard someone calling for help but, I don't want to live anymore, it's better to die than to feel this pain again

"Maybe, she never love me from the start" I whisper before I closed my eyes.

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