Why...did my life turned like this...
I've tried everything I could do...but...
Nothing is happening...nothing is changing...
I always ask myself...why...
I always think of suicide...I try to hurt myself many times...
I cut myself...blood...flowing down from my body...
Tears...coming from my eyes...
Pain...brought by the terrible people...
This cruel world....just...won't stop torturing me...
"Not all are bad, not all can love us but there's still a few there for you"
I always tell myself but...I just...
I cry like stupid!I'm desperate for love...
I wanted to see my soul mate...someone who's the right for me...someone who will love me even though I'm like this...
I was so Fcking desperate that I started to go to guys I don't know...
He looked so sweet...kind...not like others...
So I just started to...trust him...to love him...I gave him my heart...I was willing to give him my life...
I love him truly...but he didn't...it was all fake...he used me...he said..."Do you really think I would fall for you! Heh I only dated you because you looked cute and innocent" when I heard that...it was like a lightning strike hitted me...
My love for him was all true!!But he just...played me...
My best friend...someone who...I trusted the most...I was with her since we were 4...
I promised to her...that I will never leave her...and she did too...but what happened to that promise?!!!
WHERE ARE YOU NOW!!!!???
I was there...always...for you...I accompany you in your hardships...We had always been together...
But...when you saw me suffering you started to avoid me...you left me....when I needed you the most...you didn't even say goodbye to me...you didn't explain or just at least tell the reason you did that...or maybe I'm so bad that I don't even deserve to know...😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣It's funny, loving people even though they hurt you ahahahahahha🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂So you guys are leaving me just like that after everything?!!😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣Wow I guess all of that was nothing ahahahahahha,But I don't care, I don't give a fuck about any of you😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣
That's what I always tell myself but...I just can't stop thinking of them...I can't move on...I can't forget...There are so many fucking things happening to me right now, but hahaha no one fucking cares right, they just said I want attention, well you gave it yourself didn't you🙂🙂🙂.
I didn't want any attention...I was always ignored...but I never said that...because I always think that it will be better if they don't notice me...
And yeah...just think I want your fucking attention!
But I don't! I always hear that...but I've had enough...
I can only fake a smile now
Because even though if I say what I'm feeling...
No one will care...
I want to end these problems, these pain...
I just want to get my freedom from this cruel world...I want to leave this place...I just wanted a happy life...I just wanted someone to love me truly... Even though not many but at least one...
I want to disappear...and there's no point of telling anyone about me going to suicide because hahahaha no one cares, no one gives a fuck about me🙂🙂🙂
I just want to die right now
Because if I do...all of these will end...
I will be free from all of these...
I want to die🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂
