I remember whenever I got angry and delusional I would start walking fast she would try to catch up with me after a little while she will give up and my urge to hold her would strike.It's how it always was.
Because maybe it was all action and no words but the moment I spoke up everything changed I spoke until she gave up my urge to hold her was still there but I waited quietly in hope she will hold me this time.But that day never came.She moved on and I acted to move on.She started to talk bad about me and I followed her lead to do the same...talked about her until everyone thought I despise her.In the end she got too far away out of my league and I was still standing their fantasizing what if she didn't gave up? what if I didn't made a huge deal of my untold emotions? can I win her back?
Well years passed by maybe I did move on a little.