I was living with my grandparents from 5 year old , but on my 13th birthday my grandma died due to cardiac arrest 😔...
After my grandma's death my grandpa was sad and depressed,in order to stop thinking about grandma,he started keeping himself busy by doing his research.Since I will be alone in home he sent me to my parent's home with Lizzy (dog)... My parents joined me in top school,there syllabus was bit hard for me and I feeling difficult to cop up with it... With my friends and teachers support I started getting used to it and started getting good grades and i became 5th sometimes 6th topper in my class... My parents,teachers,my brother were hella proud of me...I got very good grades in 10th especially in science and I was interested in science so I took science stream after 10th... my dream was to become doctor so My brother searched a top college for my 11th and 12th highschool, i joined highschool and I was working hard for my goal and I got 95% in my 11th boards and it wasn't that bad 😞 and I was seriously preparing for my medical exam , but that time one deadly disease came because of which we had to stay home and do online classes, online class was very new to because untill 12th i didn't have any mobile phone with me nor I had any social media ,but girls my age used to have mobile and soo many social media accounts 😅the reason is my brother (it was for my own good only 😊) 🙂,so i wouldn't do well due to online classes ,but I got 94%in my 12th board exam... But I didn't want 12th marks , I wanted medical seat... To my horror 20 lakh students were writing that medical exam all over country 😱 ...and I went and gave my exam my bad luck,I got qualified the exam but i did not get govt seat,u know only 99,000 govt seats were there and 20 lakh students will write the exam😔...few hypersensitive students commited sucide it's really painfull...
In my home my parents were so supportive,they gave me freedom to choose wheather to join other course or else u will take one year drop to prepare for medical entrance exam...my brother told take one year drop and prepare well and get the seat...
i choose to take one year drop and i stayed in my home preparing seriously for exam... I did not speak to any of my relatives nor friends...one year i was in my room with my subject books 📚 studying day and night for my doctor dream...All my relatives were upset because I did not attend any functions nor any family reunion...but i didn't care about them , only me and my studies that's it,because we girls will get rare chance to achieve something, especially in my family...my parents gave privilege to choose i shouldn't disappoint them so I was working really hard...and after 1 year my exam day came these time 22 lakh people were writing the exam all over the my country,compitition was high, opportunities were less😔,(and exam was for 3 hours for 720 marks and 180 questions,each correct answer rewarded with 4 marks and 1 wrong answer we get -1 )and on that day due to anxiety and tension I got sever headache while traveling to my exam center (exam center will be very very far from my home like 2 hours journey)may be because I did not travel for 1 whole year as I was in my home preparing for my exam...dam i felt like dieing due to headache...and we reached exam center before 1 hour..I am trying to be calm and cool but my headache was killing me , i told my brother that my headache is killing me,so he brought some medicines for my headache and he cheered me up to be calm ...thn after that I went inside exam hall and I tried my best to be okay but my head became hot and i felt feverish...but still i ignored that and they distribute question paper and i attempted the paper but I was not in my correct consciousness...so I started answering my paper it was bit okay to me(in my class 1 student fainted after seeing question paper and due to hypertension),there was lot of disturbance in class , but still i finished my exam and I went out my brother was patiently waiting for me...as soon as I went near him , he asked me how i wrote the exam and how many questions i attempted etc... in Whole ride he was asking me how much I might score etc...I went home and slept of without telling anything to my parents...and after 1 month I got my results,my brother checked it for me , I was again qualified but i got 1lakh 50 k rank ,there were only 99k govt seats,(private seats were there but 15 lakh or 10 lakh per year fee😶, where it was highly impossible for my parents to pay that much 💰)my brother was deeply upset on my performance 😔,"he started to taunt me and told me I am useless and I fit for nothing,etc...(i stayed silent with my head down)....i was deeply hurt by my result (i worked deadly hard for my dream)+my brother's rude behaviour, killed me...But my parents didn't care much about my failure because they knew my hardwork and how passionate I was for my dream, they said "ur hard work doesn't go waste, u will become more sucessful in ur life , always be strong and continue doing your best in which ever field u go in,give ur 100% in it..."
I was really really thankful to God for giving me understanding parents ... I stopped impressing my brother...i was always happy to see my brother being happy and proud because of me...But my brother didn't understand my pain and hurted me and hurts like hell😔... I started becoming introvert and I started to cover my face ,as I am ashamed to show my face to anyone, and never spoke to anyone,to avoid my brother i told my parents to put in hostel...
And I joined computer science engineering,i started to develop my passion and I gave my heart and soul to understand and learn computer programming like python,Java,c,c++,etc...and my brother didn't like me joining these courses but as I said i stopped caring about my brother... Because it hurts me remember that day , with his dam words and behaviour...
I hate myself for these...
I need to prove him that he is dam wrong about me...
I am not useless....😭😶
And like these I distanced myself from my brother...😔😔...
"Never give up on life,there comes some situations where u feel like ending your life , but trust me I passed that phase and I am here and wanna tell u that "if u can't achieve ur goals even after so much hardwork , and that's not the only goal or opportunity u have in these World there are plenty of goals and opportunities waiting for u....
How dare u ditch ur parents,they did not give birth to u ,so that u can end ur life for ur selfish thinking....Before taking any bad decision think about ur parents and ur loved ones....💯
Byee take care....
Cherish what u have instead of being selfish 🤠....
When luck fucks,life sucks🤭
Always be happy and enjoy ur these one life💯❤️❤️❤️.....
