The gentle pats you will always serve in my head, those endearing laughs that continue to linger in my ears, those smiles that shine brighter than the sun, and just you that serve yourself with so much warmth, I didn't know I already fell this hard...
We're friends, that is clear and nothing more, and that's why I know it's bad to ask for so much more. Having to fell for you was really a mistake and I couldn't risk the friendship we have just for these feelings you're unable to reciprocate. But is it bad if I still imagine being with you? Having to imagine a future that includes you...
I guess I'm just fooling myself. Moved on? What a lie, who would... when all I see is you, when all I care about is you. I'm drowning so deep yet I'm still conscious of it, do I want to continue to drown or reach the surface and just move on?
But, who would have thought you would personally give me a reason to give up. Those pats, laughs, and smiles are now being served to your significant other. It hurts... Like how I would feel when I try to embrace a rose...
Now, I'm back on the surface trying my best to leave everything behind and live my life to the fullest. But you're making it difficult for me... If I can just tell you how I feel then everything will be fine, except the boundary that it will create between the both of us.
But, I already decided, I won't tell it. I know we will go in different paths anyway, and you will surely forget me one day... I just wish you happiness, and I know you could experience it with her.
It is difficult to come to this point where I need to be selfless for others... I need to give up because I don't stand a chance since then, it has always been her. After all, starting from the beginning you're already not mine to lose.
