In the death of sea where all I can see is nothing but a blur seen until I put those glasses on they say the necessary to wear under water but unlike others i didn't see fishes dolphin whales or any aquatic animal I saw them who was once buried under my memories all of them there at the same place no matter how different they live before or they gone too far from me but all in the place asking the familiar set of questions they once asked at the time we first met. All of them are ready recreate the memories we lived before some was lovely but some was stabbing with knife some are satisfied but some still asking for the reason why I left , and I got no answer I was neither happy nor sad nor wishes to live them as i once did it before but that's the journey
The first memory
A boy yes the first one i saw let's travel back in time when I was still a teenager when like all the simple minded humans all we own is freedom curiosity and hunch to explore it . I saw him as my adventure and he saw me as a petty thief stops me from going here and their and nag me with a word that I love " my thief" yep now all the people thinks what's different in it but that's the whole world for us no matter how many gummy's i stole he come back to pay the cashier, he have sense of moral what I lack and I have guts what he lacks we complete each other in terms of being a human . No matter how rude he shows up as le is kind and softhearted as he can be . I first met him in a hospital ward where all he do is staring outside his window and pout his lips wherever his family came late to meet him more than anything I saw love family love his mother gives me chocolates to when she come and his father took both of us in his arms and give rides like all in the moment we could ever have , as i told you he completes me even in the terms of family where ralerly anyone from my side came to meet and to cheer me up I saw him happy with his family he wasn't spioled but he was arrogant in a sense that when i first met him he becomes the boss of our ward and I stand there trying to digest his arrogance he used to say if anyone say anything come to me and when i first time stole the gummies he becomes timid he was even sacred of coming out of the convenience store we go into that's what do when i couldn't take his arrogance but what can I say that's what makes us , us then after sometime he becomes fine the doctors says he is in good health and he should be discharge and he say no but his parents dragged him anyway after that i didn't saw him for 2 months until one day he came to my ward and told me about his departure to another country, i wish him well and hugs eachother and then he left to the point he never came again for 6 months at the same place where he lost his arrogance. That's where it ends and ironically the boy who I saw didn't ask me anything but just watching as I am drowning.
I move forward in the water and saw the another known person.
The second memory
It's was before i admitted in the hospital and that person is my neighbour. She is a kind lady who let me stay at her house when my parents are arguing over random stuffs ,she is in her 60's her old worn out hand still have so much strength to even make kimchi with her bare hands . She made so many delicious dishes and gave me to eat when my own parents don't care I live or die . I remember when i first meet her she saw me crying outside the house and sitting on the ground when my mom and dad were throwing stuffs on each other , she ask me if I wanna wait inside her house and i remember to call her a stranger and say no , she didn't took it to heart and bring a big bowl of freshly made noodles with a lots of wontons in it . At firsti deny but she leave the bowl and a can of juice in front of me and goes back to her house at first i didn't but few minutes later I start eating it and I am pretty sure she saw me through her window cause by the time I ate all the noodles and wontons the minute later she came with a pastry and i couldn't say no to it from then she do it often wherever my parents were fighting and the voice goes outside someone rang the doorbell and I go everytime to open the door and there always something wrapped welly in a polythene and the fragrance of it make me surrender to eat it and as I saw the grandma going back to her house . I started feel grateful so I even made a cake for her but my mother asked me so many questions that I had to hide it before giving it to grandma . That's what I call her causes she wants me to . She told me about from how long she've been living here with her husband and she didn't have any kid and after her husband died not much people came to meet her . She teaches me how to make dishes and when I ask her how is she soo good at it she tells me her husband who was in army teaches her to make these dishes and when she was young she was a nurse in army and how they fell in love with each other and marry when the war is on the line . She tells me about her life experience and a lots of things about her childhood.i ask her why did she live alone here when she can be anywhere spending her time , so she looks at the photo of her husband and said this is the house we built together through rough and tough time we stay and spend it survive it all together how ca i leave here where my husband's memories.
I saw her underwater too where she has a man besides her and both of them were holding eachother's hands . But she was crying when looking at me and her question leaves me in doubt she ask "why did you do that " .
I couldn't pull myself to answer that it's like I know something but I can't remember, but I still move forward to the next person I find
