Does he know?
Do ever think of me like I do? He left me a couple of months ago and still, I'm struggling to move on from the feeling I made for him. We never met, never see each other, never hold hands like others do all we do is just let ourselves open up to each other, lost in the imaginative world. All of a sudden he left saying he need to focus on his career, I didn't stop him cause he did deserve better life but he just said the hoped of coming back to me and I strongly believe that later he did come but this time he had more to tell where i only have half emotions with a heart full of feelings but the worst to come is when i thought I'm his he break all my trust in 5 words yet i forgave him but he scattered my feelings into million by single word after a long gap in my entire life i face my first heartbreak with a person whom i didn't Evan date nor tell him the feeling I made for him. Even after this day no matter how strong I try to undo this feeling I can't cause bandages and never cure a bullet hole. The fun fact I still have hope that one day everything will be back including the person I let go but fate never is on my side. Does he ever know the feeling I had for him ? or at least the pain he gave me? or atleast the wounds? He shouldn't have said that may be I shouldn't force him to say that does become the passing cloud in my garden and after that cloud pass my garden never blossom any flowers or plant live it's all become death
"Perhaps I don't deserve nice things 'cause I am paying for sins I don't remember."
