"Good morning babe dont forget to eat you're breakfast. I love you muahh" my boyfriend chat on me.
Yeah I have a boyfriend and I'm so lucky 'cause our relationship became stronger even though we dont see each others faces in person and we only meet in rpw. In short we were in a long distance relationship and we've meet only in social media.
"Good morning too babe. You too, take care of yourself. I love you too more than myself muahh" I replyed to him. We were 1 year and 5 months now. Sometimes we quarrel but at the end of the day we end up laughing each others weirdo jokes.
AFTER 1 MONTHS
"Hi babe..How are you?." I ask him trough messenger chats.
He's acting busy nowadays. Before his always online. But now, he seldom go online. And when I'm online, he's gonna be offline minutes/hours before.
"Hello babe . . . I'm fine babe, dont worry about me. You should worry about yourself. Btw how are you? I'm sorry if I'm not always online like before. "I love you babe dont forget that" , he's so sweet as ever. Thats why I love him so much.
"You cant stop me worriying about you. I'm fine too like as always. And with that we start sweet conversations.
Our relationship went well and were 1 year and 5 months. But after we celebrate our monthsary he broke up with me. I ask him why?. Is he tired of me?. Did he lost his love at me?. Why a sudden change of heart?. But he replied . . .
"I love you babe but we are not for each other. If you doubt you're love to me please dont. I'm so happy with you and for all the time you've given to me. It's just that I'm the one who has problem not you. I'm sorry I think this is my last message and farewell to you. I have to go back where the world that I truly belong. I love you and goodbye."
That was his last and hurtful message to me. He didn't even waited for my reply before he deactivated his account.
I also leave on rpw 'cause I want to move on and fixed my broken heart. It was about 2month and I could say I'm a little bit okey. It's hard to move on, to forget, the person that you loved more than yourself. Well, thats life you must focus to your goal.
I was busy scrolling to my facebook account when a picture caught my eyes. I stalk his account 'cause I think this was his real account.
A single tear became two and until I cant count it anymore. Do know why?. I saw his picture inside a coffin sleeping peacefully like he dont have a problem. Together with a picture there was a message that the person who taged his account. I read and the message was. . .
"You said you'll fight but why did you gave up so soon. You're so deceitful, we didnt spent more time together with our other friends but why you left us. You said you want to meet that girl you loved and say the real reason why you broke up with her. That you have a stage 4 brain tumor and I see that you're fighting so hard just to survied that disease. Fuck that disease how I wish I have a power to restore you life in this unfair world of ours. Rest in peace bro dont worry I'll treasure our friendship and wherever the girl you loved I'm sure his fine now even though she didnt know what was your real reason. I’ll miss you bro *sobs* sounds chessy but i mean it"
I scroll and i see his video.
It's the day of our 1year and sixth monthsary but sad to say we broke up this time.
"hello babe happy 1 year and 6 month eventhough we didnt make it 'cause I'm numb and coward man. I just don't want to hurt your feelings but I did now. I dont want you to feel the sadness that I'm feeling right now. It's okey that I'm the one who's suffering, 'cause maybe not now but soon I will be gone in this world. I love you babe and I'll keep watching you. Thanks for the love that you gave, the cares for our relationship to get stronger." he pause a little.
" If I die I wont felt so sad, or just a little. Do you why babe?. Because in a short period of time, I realize the true meaning of happiness and it's because of you. My wish for you babe was don't be sad. Always smile even if you have lots of problems that come to you. Dont forget to enjoy and be contented. Find a man who's better than me and can bring more happy memories on you. . ." thats the last message I got from him but I dont have last message for him.
"I’m sorry." the only last two words that was full of regrets.
