We met on Valentine’s Day..
After a week, we decided to date..
You always visit me on my classroom during recess or lunchtime. We talked about ourselves and laughed about stupid things. We went home together cause you always wait for me and I always wait for you too. We can’t go home without the other.
After months, we got comfortable with each other. We ate lunch together and went home together. We were young, happy and content with each other that time. It’s like we were made for each other (that’s what our schoolmates said) we were called the cutest and popular couple on our school that time. We were together for a year through good thing and bad. Whenever I get sick, you were there to comfort me, making me feel secured. You were my “Iron Man” and you are the only man for me. I was always loyal to you.
Until..... you graduated, and I was left alone. You chose to study outside our town. I supported you, and reassured you I am fine. It was very lonesome at first cause ever since I met you, you were always there for me. Long distance relationship is hard but I love you badly so I gave it a shot.
The day I saw you with your girl classmates was terrible. I got angry and sad at the same time. I thought I am the only girl you wanted to get close to, yes that is childish but that is who I am. Whenever my boy classmates make a move to me or get near to me, I walked away because I thought of you (thinking you might get angry and sad) but seeing you get close to another girl making me doubt myself. “Am I the only one whose like this?” You’re unfair, I thought to myself.
FAST FORWARD ~
I saw more picture of you and other girls while our communication was not the same anymore. You just texted me whenever you’re not busy, but you had time with other girls, smiling in front of the camera and posting it online, my heart got broken. That was the time I cheated on you, cause I thought you cheated on me. I felt lonely and seek love to other people. When you caught me, I was ashamed of myself and told you it was just a mistake and you accepted me. I promised my self I won’t cheat again cause I don’t want to lose you.
But months past, I went on your phone (but with your permission) then I saw a one message in the sent box that destroyed my world, you told her not to text you since you’re going home and gonna spend time with me, your girlfriend. You even called her “baby” on that text. I got so angry that tine that I almost killed my self but you stopped me. And told me you did that because I cheated on you first. I cried, and told you “I promised you that I wont do it again but you did it yourself”. We argued and broke up. But in the end, we still seek for each other so we decided to start again.
We were almost on our second anniversary, we were both doing pur best for each other. We were happy.
But that was only my thought...
There was this time that, one of your closest friend texted me and told me that you have another girl there, I doubted that because I believe in you. But when he showed me your chat and the photo you sent to him (you, eating with two girls) with a caption “my girl” My world collapse one more time and I cant believe it since we were so happy and our relationship was very good and our communication was smooth that time. We argued again and I forgave you in the end since I love you so much.
When our anniversary came, you were very busy and we haven’t got a chance to enjoy our day. But it was fine with me since I was an understanding girlfriend.
But when a week passed after our anniversary. You decided to celebrate, I was very happy and excited that time. We ate ice cream then went on a snack bar and ate our favorite food. But then someone called your phone, I pick it since you didn’t dare, but you snatched it away. And talked about something about projects and flash drives. I asked you who was that but you just told me it was tour classmate so I let it go. But then he called you thrice during our date and I got suspicious because you are acting weird like you were scare of getting caughted. When I put the phone on my ears, I heard a woman. Then that was it, I pressed it on and we argued again. You were angry at me for touching your phone, and in the end we broke up.
Days passed without you texting me. I texted you, I admitted my mistakes. I apologized for behaving like that, I beg you to reply but I got no response. I was like that for a month but I didn’t even get a reply or response from you, I begged you. I cried every day and night that month. I was so broke, I couldn’t eat properly and I even lose weight.
Then there’s this guy I met on social media, we talked online and I shared our story to him. He adviced me and told me to know my worth. I enjoyed talking to him and even forgot about the thought of losing you. But when he told me to stopped chasing you. I told him to back off and just let me to talk to you one last time.
Since you are not responding to my messages, I went to your house early in the morning. We talked outside, I begged you to love me. I cried and begged you but you just told me to go away because you’re sleepy. We were not making sense that time. I kept begging you but you turned your back at me. So I told you “let me tell you one last time, if you won’t accept me this time. I will left you, And I won’t forgive you. Even if you beg for me, I wont accept you.” You just listened so I continued talking “If you let me walk away right now, you will lose me forever, I’m telling you I won’t come back in any circumstances mark my words” but you just told me “go on, I’m going to sleep”
I walked out angry and broken, I was crying while walking. But when I got near my house I decided to be strong and hold on my words. I wipe my tears away and texted that guy I kept talking that time. I never texted you for 4 days because I knocked my self some senses. I decide to lift my worth as a woman and as a person. I decided not to beg for love and went for a new one who could possibly give me the love I wanted from you.
But I got shocked when I saw you on my doorstep, waiting for me. Hoping to have a chance to talk but I turned you down. I told you to go home because I am busy. But you stayed and begged for my time. So I got on your motorcycle and went to your house, we were back to normal like lovers but not with the same feeling anymore. I cooked for you, and took care of you since you told me you have fever. I was with you that whole day but without the close feeling anymore. When the day was done, you sent me home and thought we were back to normal. You told me you love me but I told you I don’t love you anymore. You begged for my love and told me to get back together but I didn’t accept and told you “didn’t I told you if you let me get away this time, I wont come back in any circumstances, I even told you to mark my words.” He was speechless.
I told you bad things, but you just wont walk away so I told you the cruelest thing I thought. I told you to go away because I have a new lover. You even asked who was it but I didn’t told you. I just told you that I was happy with him. That was the only thing that can push you away so I let you get hurt. It was raining that time when you walked out, you turned your back at me and left.
I was happy and content with my decision, I knew my worth and decided to stayed strong.
Right now, I’m with my new man for 4 years and we already have a little boy on our own. I never regretted that decision and went on with life.
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Watch out for the Part 2 about his side. While I was living my dreams, he is having nightmares.
