I had been watching you over the years. As a best friend I held it inside. The feeling of love I had for you. When you got a girlfriend I was the first to know. I was the first one to comfort you when she broke up. The first one to hug you when you were sad. I would try everything in my power to make you happy.
One day as I went to your house, I saw you with her again. Kissing, You know she was cheating on you. But why?! Why didn't you just give up? I walked into the house and you gasped.
"I'm sorry I forgot you were coming. You remember Sarah right?" You said it with a smile. Honestly I wanted to walk up to you and slap you. Get you in the right state of mind. She smirked at me and held out her hand. I ignored it. He was dating this girl again. The same girl that broke his heart. He knows that she's cheating. Then why?
When she left you sighed. "Listen I just can't get over her. Today she came and apologized she seemed sincere. Don't worry it won't happen like last time. I trust her, so please don't be mad." How can I not be mad? I'm your best friend and I've helped you with every step of your life. But you know nothing about mine.
"James, I can't be mad at you for loving someone. But to love someone who's obviously cheating on you. Don't you get it?! She's just after money and pleasure. She'll leave you again! Why don't you understand that. You deserve someone better then her."
He looked me straight in the eyes and slapped me. My cheek was red and it hurt. I could feel the tears building up in my eyes. I couldn't belive he slapped me.
"I can't belive you would say that. Apparently your not thr person i thought you were. Just like Sarah said." I felt tears drip down my cheeks. My sight got foggy and I started to lose my temper. He choose to belive a cheater over his best friend.
"OK THEN LET ME ASK YOU THIS. WHO WAS YOUR BEST FRIEND FOR 15 YEARS?!! WHO COMFORTS YOU WHEN YOUR SAD. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME!"
Then and there I was sobbing, it was my first time yelling at him. I could feel his eyes on me. I could feel guilt. But I didn't care anymore I had to let this out. For him to realize who has been by his side for 15 years and who hasn't.
"YOU DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAVE NO PARENTS! YOU DONT KNOW MY FAVORITE SONG OR WHAT MY HOBBIES ARE! I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. I CARED FOR YOU FOR YEARS. BUT THIS US HOW YOU TREAT ME?! YOU NEVER HAVE EVEN TRIED TO GET TO KNOW ME ITS ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT! "
He placed his hand on my cheek and leaned his head to mine. He whispered "I'm sorry I lost control"
But I can't do this anymore. I really can't. You've never recognized me. I want you to know how it feels when I say goodbye.
" No, I'm sorry. This friendship is over. If we were even friends. But before I leave I have to tell you something. I really loved you for all these years but you mistreated me. I can't take this pain any longer. No matter what I'm still human." I saw pure guilt and sadness on his face. I was still sobbing with pain and sadness. He will soon realize what he lost.
"Goodbye James I hope you realize your mistake. I advise you leave Sarah before you get hurt again." I saw him start to cry. He grabbed onto my waist pleading me to stay. But I can't, I can't stay with him like this. It's impossible. I breathed in and out. And pried open his arms. I smiled and left.
A year later I heard that he had broken up with Sarah because she was cheating. I knew it all along. But he never listened. I called him and he started to sob saying that he regrets everything and for me to come back.
"I'm sorry but that was my last goodbye. Some day maybe we'll run into eachother, but the pain you put me through was to great to forget." I then hanged up. I'm sorry James. This will be the end of us. I hope we never meet again. I guess I'm back to being alone.......
