A girl having a free mind and high dreams was all alone. There were many people around me my friends, my parents but then also I was all alone. A girl with pimples and short height, nobody liked me. Nobody noticed the inner me. Everyone used to demotivate me. Every dream I had was demoralised by all because I am a girl. I cant join Indian Army because I am girl. My biggest dream was to become an IAS officer which was demotivated by all because I am a girl of general category. They all said me it is a long process, you should change your dream. But everytime a question arised in my mind,"If dreams can be changed then why people call them dreams? If this is a dream which can be changed then what is the motive of life?". Nobody supported me. I used to stay happy from outside but God knows how ruined I was from inside. I left all my hobbies, my marks eventually went down.That was the time when my mind said nobody is here you should die. Nobody used to support me. I used to sit all alone in my school. Life was going on a wrong way. Everything which happened was against me and suddenly a person came into my life. He proposed me and said,"I love you!" I asked him for friendship and he said yes. We used to talk daily, meet daily, had some small fights and all. As the time passed, he became my best friend and I realised a change in my life. I was happy from inside and used to think that he supports me. We used to meet daily, spend time together. He supported my dreams, motivated me and told me that I am not alone. I felt that yes! I am not that much alone. I restarted working on my dreams and hobbies. Suddenly I had to go for a vacation with family for a week without him and I realised that I love him. After coming back home , I told him the whole story and said I love you! He accepted me as I was. Everything was going right at time that suddenly people started creating misunderstandings between us. Everyday we had a fight because he never trusted me. Things went wrong and everyday we used to have a breakup. He was changed. Everyday he blamed me. Everyday he used to make me feel that I am worng and I am the worst person ever. Suddenly the person I loved the most was changed. He said me that I should kill myself because I am the worst person ever. Everytime I handled myself after hearing all these things but the question arised till when? A day came we had a fight and I realised that nobody loves me not even he. I said him I am going and he said yes please go, I will be happy. That time I was really shocked and I broke deep down. After one day He said sorry and I gave him a chance. But this time I was happy from outside broken from inside. Again that same phase came in life when I was all alone , he was with me but in reality he was not with me. Everything and everyone was against me.
Now he even stopled talking to me. Two months passed and he messaged me sorry once again. I gave another chance to him. One day, he asked me for having sexual contact with him I refused, he said he will leave me and I allowed him. I dont know what happened to me, why I allowed him, What thoughts came in my mind. I just knew that if I will not obey him he will leave me and I cant bear it now. My life changed. After having all this done he went away from me. He left me. I was shocked. The person who gave me hope, the person who loved me, the person who motivated me, used me and went away. My heart was not ready to accept the truth. This incident had a deep impact on my life. I started playing with the feelings of everyone. I dont know why my mind started playing with feelings as happened with me. I was not happy at all. Everyone thought I am happy hut nobody knew the story of inside me. The inside me , alone , sad, broken, left, a girl with pimples, nobody liked me , i was ruined this was the inside me. People started bullying me saying aww the pimple girl came. The short girl came. I left everyone and tried to commit suicide , two to three times but everytime I escaped. I started living alone , stopped sharing my feelings with anyone and one day the ambitious girl inside me died. I had no dreams, no wishes , no energy. Nobody noticed my tears, everyone noticed my fake smile. The deeper me, the inside me , the sad me, the broken me, everyone died. I had a accident and lost my right hand. That time I didn't knew why everything is going wrong. Why he came into my life?? Why I am alone? Why everyone dimotivates me?Why he left me? Why I was changed? Why at the same time I had a accident and why I lost my hand. I thought it was the end. The end of my dreams, th end of inside me. But then I realised what if I lost my hand, What if He left me?What if all demoralise me? They do so because they know I will fulfill all my dreams, they want to ruin me , they want to destroy me and I am allowing them to do so. That moment changed my life. I restaterted working on my dreams and achieved my dreams and realised that people bark unless you have success. They all demotivate us to make us strong. Ignore dogs barking at you, have success. People will bark lock their mouths with your dreams. Ups and downs will come. The person having desire to fulfill dreams will become stronger and the other will die.
