It's a story about a girl who fall in love with someone she shouldn't.............
It was a normal day when I first saw him I thought he was cute. He was my classmate we use to talk with each other a lot he was cute and sometime I feel like he is a kind but one day when I saw him helping a granny I got crush on him I know it is funny bcoz I have spend so much tym with him but never thought I will get crush on him but I thought if people will know Wat will they think and I started ignoring him and he was like wats wrong with her and I was like no man I don't want to be near with him
after some time we got in fight bcoz of some matter and I stop talking with him and he also stop talking with me but after few days he apologized to me and I said its okay and again we became friend but it doesn't last long again we got into fights bcoz of his frnd and he said something which hurt me
I cried for whole night and now I was determined that now I will not forgive him and I stop talking with him after few days they have to go other school for some work for whole year
and I was feeling sad but I didn't show it I just smile and I didn't even bother to look at him it was not like I don't want to see him but I know if I see him I know Wat will happen to me after that I was not in contact with him but everyone was contact with them
but I didn't talk much about them when ever they talk about I used to slip away bcoz I know even if we are in fight and m angry with him but still deep in heart m sad and m missing him......
After a year when he came back he have change a lot he was no more that cute person .........
Every one was happy but I didn't spoke to anyone They thought that I was sawing my attitude but they don't know that I didn't talk much and he already forgot about our fight and thought that I was sawing him attitude and he feel bad but after few days I started talking with them but I still didn't talk with him one day he throw a paper toward me when I open the paper something was written on it it was "STOP YOUR ATTITUDE " and after reading it I just smile at him and he also smile back at him after that we start talking again thn on his birthday he proposes me but I didn't accept him....
But on vacation I accept his proposal and we were happy in our relationship but due to some reason we got brkup but it was not hurtful bcoz he was just crush for me but after few days he again come back and apologized and cried in front of me and my heart melted seeing his face and we got patch up but after staying with him I didn't even realised when I fall in love with him we used to care for each other but their was communication. gap between us that led us to brkup plus I guess trust I didn't trust him and asked him for brkup when I heard something vulnerable about him I brkup with him it was hurt for to say those word from my mouth I just wrote it and pass it and he too was heart broken bcoz I didn't believe him and didn't give tym for explanation......
After few day he got high fever bcoz of depression and skipping of meal...
I was damn worried about him but on the same say when I was about to asked about his health I just said that he hate me from core of his heart and don't saw my face in front of him...... I was total broken I can feel my heart was breaking
But I decided to respect his decision but after few days I got sick and due to stress my health got worse and I was unable to attend my class for almost 2 month in this 2 month I was not in contact with anyone so no one no about my health ......
After when I went back everyone was shock bcoz I was thinner than before and I was no more cheerful as before..........
TIMESKIP
And my birthday cake on my birthday he didn't look at me I was hurt but I still keep my smile............
on next day of my birthday he gave my gift through one of our friend and they forced me to accept it......
And I just accept it he was happy that I accept it
after few day he came to me and explain about the matter and situation and I was feeling guilty that I didn't trust him I was feeling so guilty that I was not able to eye contact with him while talking but he just hug me and asked to forgive inspire if my mistake
And I was unable to control my tear and I cried in his arm....
Finally I realized that how important he is for me and how much trust is important between a partner......
After that we trust each other and love each other we care and respect each other a lot we didnt realised how tym pass away it was almost 3 year of our relationship I thought like other we will be together with each other but guess I was my fate was asking something else due to my parents and my health I have to leave him when I leave him with those cruel word none know how painful it was for me to say those word to someone you love wholeheartedly I was suffocating I feel like m dying
For almost 3 month I was in depression and didn't expose on sunlight..........
It take me more than 5 month to convince myself and over come depression
But still now I can't move on or can say that o don't want to.....
That day I realized every thing that we see are not beautiful and everyone doesn't have happy love life ........
And ryt.how I realised that may be you are not my match god has send someone for me and also same goes to you.......
But" YOU WILL BE MY FIRST LOVE " even if some one come in my life
Thank you for your love and I don't regret loving you bcoz you make me realised the meaning of love
