he opened up his eyes and looked at me who was still sleeping. after a kiss on my forehead he was no where to be found the whole day.
he was working. oh he is my boyfriend Dylan who. I love more than anything. we've been distanced by factors called money making and job but still I stay with him.
he is always tensed about things that will or maybe happen in the future but yeah males are always in a run to make the future better.
i have work too. I am a working for an entertainment company as a makeup artist. the band is now famous which resulted me to have a better income which can atleast be the cause that I can buy from one of my favourite brand DIOR.
after a 4 hours run I've reached the entertainment company. you may ask if I have ever had a crush on any idol. yes of course after all I am a human. but the crush didn't get more than 2 days to ride out of my mind.
today there is no work so I am here to help the editing department with as a help hand if they want. there is a rush here for the new release of my band's album.
(time skip) it is just 8 p.m. one more hour for me to be free. none of the band members came to the studio or the practice room cause they are at home eating boiled potato and broccoli.
one hours which seemed like a day to me passed slowly. and soon the clock struck 9. I reached for my bag and ran towards my car. I needed a cup of coffee , a bath and a cuddle with my boyfriend that's all
I planned to stop at the near by coffee shop and buy 2 cups of coffee and some deserts. I walked into a coffee shop which was brightly lit with bright white hanging fairy lights.
this shop was quite near to my home which is shared with my boyfriend. I started to order 2 cups of iced Americano and 2 crêpe.
I waited for atleast 15 minutes and here my pack came. I took it and walked to my car. I stopped my car while driving when the traffic light shined the bright red colour but the reason why I stopped was because I saw something.
something sharp enough to poke my eyes and hurt my heart. the scene in front of me was a bit blurry because of the tears forming in my eyes it was clear enough that I was being cheated.
there in the foot path stood a manly handsome man whom I named as Dylan my boyfriend with a girl more prettier than me and beautiful than me dressed in a mini skirt and a cute bright shirt with him.
kissing him on his lips while he held her by her waist as if he wanted to be kissed. this was enough to make me feel cold and to wet my collar.
the person whom I wanted to always be with was no more mine. I was hurt and was bleeding badly but no one was there to take care of me. whom should I call I had no one. my parents already threw me alone when I was six when they met a car accident.
I had no one . no friend , no brother , no family and just no one. I only had number of the band members , my so called boyfriend, my CEO and the other worker. if I call a band member who is close to me it would be awkward to tell him who is famous all over the world that I found my boyfriend cheating on me.
I can only keep my head down to the steering wheel and cry my eyes out. cause I had no where to go. no home . no parents and now no love.
being cheated was the worst when you are in the middle of the month of January and feeling the cold in your hands ever since the morning.
it just felt like you've been stabbed with the same knife and the same person a million times and are taken to a hospital and are treated and then again get stabbed by that person.
it hurts. it hurts so much that I forgot the fact that I had a life of my own. I suddenly started to hear horns and I knew the light turned green.
I started to drive with tears but even my fate didn't want me to stop the pain by meeting me with an accident cause my hose was near.
I stopped my car and ran in. I put the coffee and crêpe on the table and ran to the shower opened the water and started crying my heart out just asking God a question "why me?"
what else could be asked since I suffered all sorts of loss since childhood. no parents , no money, no family , no warmth, no siblings to be hang on , no friends and now no love to say mine.
it felt like .... as if I was being burnt alive with fire taking over my soul. tears shattering over my death bed. heat covering my body and just pain as a result.
after crying for a whole hour looking at the water and tear dripping reflection on myself in the mirror I faked a smile.
and stepped out the bathroom. not even drying myself I opened my phone and dialed Dylan's number and after 10 minutes when he picked up I asked him "hey baby...when are you gonna come it feels cold"
he only responded with an answer "baby I am busy I will be there in an hour"... busy yeah I know you are but with the wrong work.
I couldn't afford to even leave the fakest love that I was receiving it felt enough for a person like me who never ever received a love. maybe I only deserved this much...to be blinded by love.
I swept my tears changed my clothes drank down the coffee and opened the tv. there were movies like "titanic" to add to my pain so why not.
soon the door rang and I knew I needed to get back to my normal self who never knew what was happening . and be blind again. I walked out the door opened the gate and here stood the man I once used to call mine.
I couldn't even slap his face because of the love I had for him . I could only love him even if he didn't. I hugged him with a smile that I pulled up and whispered into his ears "Dylan.... I..I love you " which already bloomed tears dripping from my eyes.
I hugged him tight not wanting to leave him. I wanted to reverse my mind to the point when I never knew these things and only loved him.
I kissed his ear lobe with all the heat and warmth I can get and pulled him more close to my chest.
he kissed my cheeks and caressed my back with his warm fingers which I could feel even after wearing a sweater.
and he kissed my cheeks and nuzzled into my neck and muttered "I love you too my angel" that sounded so real that I wanted to believe each of his word.
I wanted it to be the only truth that I could hear and feel. I wanted his heart only for me but what can I do except just waiting and to see.
it want late to leave but still I didn't want to. I wanted this moment to me the prize of the love I gave and to be the forever thing. but nothing is forever. even love .
I walked him in and waited for him to bath and come . I knew I was just bullshitting even after knowing the truth but this was the sh*t that I wanted.
the mess that I created. as he came I gave him his crêpe and coffee which he took pleasingly and started to talk about his work.
I was only admiring his face which was once the reason why I made others jealous and shouted that I have a boyfriend. I was admiring his features his sound his eyes his lips his fingers and his hand which was once only for me.
after he ate he walked to bed while pecking my lips as usual and made me feel the faded love again and he climbed to the bed soon I joined into his arms cuddling into the man that I love the most.
tearing from the pain, but showing I am same. I slept in his arms, even after knowing I was being played. I knew I was blind ,I knew he won't stay, but who am I to stop ,the king of this game. I played as mistress , I played a side role. but once I was the queen, coated in his heart. but now I fell down the throne.
