Dear to my unwanted sorrows,
I was born in a perfectly made out of nothing. I was left on the hospital without a name to claim. I was gave to the orphanage without someone to care. I grown up with the left over of others. I'm hoping for someone to take me out of this place but no one took me there.
I was force to do the chores that is beyond my worth but no one stand for me there. I got sick but no one took care of me there. I went to school with no one notice me there. I got good grades but no one appreciated me there.
When the time that I turn eighteen no one take me to dancing. When I fell like I'm in love no one knows it. And when the time that I got my admission to college everything has change cause you already knows it.
You appear to me like a thunder lightning. And I never hope in my whole life that someone will get interest on me. You tell me for who you are , what you want, and the things that you don't want. Then when the time that you ask me for who I am, what I want and I don't want, I got excited because never in my eighteen years in my life ask me that question. Then I told you, my name, and followed by what I want and I don't want.
We become a perfect companion for every activity going on at school. You even try to convince me to take a good part in Art Club because you notice that I'm good in painting and I was glad for that. When you got your boyfriend, I was so happy to knew that I'm the first person you've been told.
When you got a misunderstanding in your home, I was there in your side to listen and soothe you until you cool down. I let you to stay sometime in humbly small apartment to cover up to your parents that you are secretly hooked up with your boyfriend.
As the time goes by, I'm always glad that we are still stay together. Until Six months of companionship without levels, you ask me to be your best friend. Ofcourse who am I to reject that , so I said, ofcourse why not. You don't know how much happiness that brought to that.
We are stay the same until we reach our last year in college. In our three years of friendship, there are a lot of things that happened our friendships from two persons become bigger and bigger until we become like a happy big family. But we always knew that our bonds is thicker than the other friends of ours, and they knew it.
As life getting brighter for us. I met a man whom I felt in love with. At first I ignore my feelings cause for me he is a kind of person that out of my reach. He is rich and I am nothing. My only thing that I can proud of , is our friendships.
But He insist his self to me, he shows me that he doesn't care my background and for what he only wants is that my love for him. And I didn't miss it to share it with you. You are the first person that I've been told that he is sincere to me. But I never knew back then that you are hiding something.
On Monday morning, I told you that I plan to make him my boyfriend on his 22th birthday on Saturday and you just nod. I thought at that time that you are not in the mood. So I asked you, if you're okay, but you just said that your fine, but still I insist you to say more because it make me feel like something is off in your mood that day. But you just quite for a seconds then suddenly you smile like an idiot and say that "really I'm fine." If I knew back then that smile is a force smile , I should have force you to say more.
On Tuesday Morning, I'd been welcome by a red paint bath done by some random students. I was shocked, I don't know what I had done that force them to did that to me. When I find you, I'm was glad. But when I'm about to approach you , you told me that "You, stink freaking b*tc* get away from me." I don't knew why you said that, and I was just thought that maybe you are just kidding. So I walk myself alone in the CR, and wash myself .
After an hour of cleaning myself I go to the Art club. Then I found some of my pictures with a written note that , I am a stripper. I hurriedly go to the other classroom, then I found that My face is everywhere in the campus with a written note that I am a stripper.
I don't knew back then who did that. Because I don't remember someone that I got offended. And You knew that I living my life out of the trouble.
I try to ask some of our friends, if they have any idea who did that. But I can't believe when I heard their respond, saying that .
" Omg, don't act like an innocent, stop playing like a porcelain doll to us, cause it's not worth it,". But I never hurt on what to to they believe , but I was hurt that after all along I can't rely on them.
So I decided to find you, When you are nowhere to be found in campus , I decided to go back to apartment.
On Wednesday, I still going to school, that time there is no more bath paint but a degrading sarcasm face is present in my eyes. I ignore them. Then I decided to see the man I love , to know if he change his feelings towards me after knowing the nonsense rumors about me.
When he saw me, he didn't hesitate to give me a big hug and ask how I'm doing and he ensure to me that he didn't believe in any rumors that been threw to me and he promise to help me to find the culprit who died this to me. I was feel relief after hearing that, atleast their is another person who still on my side aside from you , right?
The rumors never stop, and I still can't find and reach you . Im not worries about the rumors that been slap to me, but I'm more worry, of where were you? I try to visit in your home but your mom told me that you are busy doing your research with your group mates, and when I try to call your number, it sends me always directly to your voicemail.
I was worried of you at that time.
When the day has come, It is his birthday, Everyone is invited because he is pretty popular in the school. When he personally pick me up in my apartment to his party. I was so happy, then when we arrive at the venue, which is in his home, I see you holding a can of beer, and kinda you are already drank.
When I go out to the car, everyone's attention is in me and my man. I've seen a lot of different expressions, and when I try to look at you, I don't believe what I saw. You are looking at me with your disgusting frown , when I make my way towards you. I didn't expect what you do next.
You threw me the beer inside your can that you are holding. I was shocked at the same time confuse. Cause, how could you do that to me? What I had done to you? So I ask you calmly, " Why did you that? What is wrong with you?"
Without a word, you quickly grab your knife in your purse and trying to stab it to me , but suddenly someone push me to the ground that's why you the knife did not hit me, when I saw the person who push me and I see thats my man, he is bleeding, he was been stab on his right arm. How could you do that?
And everything is becoming a Crystal clear to me. Cause I found out that you are the culprit who spread the rumors about a pictures with a written that Im a stripper, and you're the one who told the students to give a bath paint, and now you even try to kill me.
What are you? We use to be best friends. What made you do it? I don't know if can forgive you with what you did? But , I want to ask you one thing.
Did you meant it when you say that we are best friends?
