The day I was left and orphan was the day I needed to be saved.
I need to be saved from reality, society, my universe. But there was no one there to save me, instead I was pushed further into the dirt by the people around me.
My parents died when I was just nine years old, they left me in this world full of hatred and I wish they could've take me with them so I can be free from all these people who say I am special when really I'm hopeless. I'm not useful in anyway so I should've died in a car accident with my parents.
But all that pain is gone, it all stopped when I started to cut. It was like pain was on top of pain and it just made me relieve, or that's what I thought.
For years i was an orphan, getting bullied by others while treated horribly, but I didn't care at first, I thought I deserved it. But something deep down was telling me to "run" to "leave and get out" and that what I did at the age of 14.
I left with only a few of my things. I didn't know where I was going I was only following my heart. After a year of running away I finally gave up.
Then it happened. I bumped into a pretty Auburn boy who looked no older then 16. He was shimmering in my eyesight but that could also be my imagination from insomnia and anxiety, and soon I passed out.
I woke up in a bright room the color of steel blue painted walls and a mini brown nightstand and few others things that I didn't let my eyes adjust too. I took in the smell of the room and slightly smiled. "The waves of the ocean with a hint of pine cones" I whispered to myself.
It smelled like my mom when she cleans the house but I couldn't help wonder wher I'm at or is it a dream but my questions vanished when that same Auburn boy came rattling in. I moved back as he placed breakfast on the nightstand I panicked and ran in the nearest corner of the door and wrapped my arms around my body.
Foot steps came towards me but I dared myself not to look until a hand was placed on my back. I started to shake at the gesture. I really wanted to take a run for it but as I was leaned into his chest I felt more calm and relaxed a bit.
"Its ok" the boy said. At that moment I broke down crying into this stranger's chest. He picked me up and laid me on the bed. "You need to eat so I brought this" He handed me a plate loaded with food, I stared at him as he left without saying a word.
After an hour passed by I decided to go investigate around this place. I opened the door to the bedroom and almost had a stroke. The place look fancy and only rich lived in it.
I walked down stairs to see a small group of teens playing around. There seem to be about five of them. I sat on the top of the stair case and listened. A girl with silky blonde hair was typing away on her phone with another girl beside here with deep dyed purple hair with a pink streak going down her bangs. There was another girl hanging around a boy in the kitchen as they was just being a mess, one with red hair and black hair while the boy had blue.
I then saw the Auburn boy from earlier. Hey had black hair with blue streaks. "hey Donna, can you pass me the salt?" The blue headed boy asked. The red head nodded and have it to him. The two girls on the couch got up and walked over to the kitchen counter and leaned on it.
"Hey Dylan, are you gonna tell us about the boy you met?" The punk girl asked. He turned his head towards her and shrugged. " I don't know much about him, but I do know that hes sensitive and I know he cuts but what I saw on his arm" I shivered as he mentioned what I did. They all have looks of worry on there faces. "And you didn't tell us!" The red head said throwing a empty water bottle at the Auburn boy.
"well it's really not my place to tell, but anyways I have to check on him, can you guys finish up?" they nodded.
I left the stairs and gently closing the door But falling as I tripped on the rug. The door opened and the boy just looked at me. I quickly got up and ran to the covers and threw it over my head. I didn't want to say this but close up this boy is tall and it freaked me out. I'm 5'4 while he looks 6'0 tall.
I felt a hand lift the covers up from over my head. I gazed into the persons eyes as it sparkled like the moonlight. "Hey let's get you freshen up, you must feel dirty." He suggested. I nodded. "The bathroom is across the hall, you can go in there while I get you some clothes." I nodded. I left the room and smelled my self. I reeked, he was right I do need a bath.
I opened the bathroom door and turned the lights on and took in my surroundings. The bathroom could fit at least 6 or 7 people in here I was shocked. The boy came in with clothes and placed them on the counter. "I didn't know what you would like to where so I got you a pair of clothes from everybody's room. I nodded as he left.
I looked over the clothes and saw girl clothes I slightly giggled. At that moment I knew they had mistaken me for a girl, by my feminine body and my long hair, but they never heard me speak yet but either way I would sound like a girl. I mean don't get me wrong I like looking like a girl at Times it's just...idk..I feel weird walking out as a girl when I'm really a boy but I'll just have to go with the flow.
I tried my hair up so it doesn't get wet and jumped in the shower. I decided to wash my hair while I was at it. When I got out I dried my self and looked in the mirror. My hair went a little passed my shoulders and bangs fully covered half my face, I thought about doing my hair but got to lazy. I slipped on a big long sleeve t-shirt And tights. I grabbed my dirty clothes and put it in a basket that had dirty clothes in it.
I walked out towards the stairs and peered over it. They where all goofing of as I walked to the end I non of them recognize me standing there, until a blue headed boy told everyone to look.
I tensed up as I had attention on me. I bagged up a little. The Auburn boy walk towards me. "I'm Dylan Hall and I'm 17 and these are my friends, the red haired one is Donna shes 16, the blonde is leslie shes 15, the blue head is Alex hes 17, and the purple head one is jenna is 15." I They all said hi and I waved.
"what's your name?" Dylan asked. I looked them all over and then started talking. "my n-name is Terrain w-wilson and im 15." They all stared in awe. "Isn't that a boy name" Donna asked. I looked at them in confusion, but remembered they don't know my gender. i nodded. "I'm a boy.." I told them. The all had shock faces.
"no offense you kinda look like a girl." Says jenna. I shook my head "it's fine..I cross dress" They didn't look discussed or mad they just looked happy. "What sexuality are you?" leslie asked. "I'm pansexual, and polyamorous." I could tell the girls was getting to excited. "have you done it before" jenna asked smirking. I blushed and shook my head no.
"you know your pretty cool, but I don't get while you would cut" leslie said. Alex hit her beside her head and told her to shut up.
"it's fine really it's just, my parents died when I was 9 and I was getting bullied for being and orphan and along the way I fallen in depression, they kept beating every day and I decided to leave last year and I've been on the run for years until I ran in to him" I said pointing at Dylan. I thought I was done for but when I noticed what he has done for me I realized that you guys are nothing like those people."
They felt guilty. "do you still do it?" Alex asked. I bit my lip and nodded. They hugged me and said there sorry. I never really liked being hugged or touch because it reminded me of my parents but know this is different..I feel welcome, relieved, and I feel hope. This is where my new journey begins, my new fresh start....
This is my New Beginning...
