It can be many reasons. For example my self esteem has become really low. Often I have wondered what would have happened if I had given up when I was too young. Running away from the responsibility I was bestowed upon.I have lost too much to even look back. Ain't it hella being living in hell all this time. Sometimes I wonder all those people who have done wrong to me, Ever sat themselves down and thought what they have done. I heard karma won't spare anyone. But i have never seen the bad people or those bullies suffering anything that I have been through. I can clearly see they are enjoying their lives. while I cry myself to sleep although I hard sleep for 2 to 3 hours. I have always been a person who fought to live and be brave in my own way. But recently I don't even have strength to get up anymore. Where is that old me. I have never felt so defeated in life. Giving excuses to myself that it's hard time going on. it will be okay. But I know too well that it's ain't going to be any better atleast not now. I either now leaving everything I like or even if I am doing something it's just to pass the time. And I have been sulking more than I should be. It's really hard to just forgo everything. Will I ever be able to stand on my own feet? I hope so.
