It's suffocating, so suffocating....
I am desperately waiting .....
For the peaceful days I had
Back when I was smiling...
Used my brain....
Upto no limits....
Got no way out
From this dark pit...
I don't know , now
If I m tired or in fear
Everything has gone numb
Feels like my end is near....
I m crying , daily
Since these dreadful days
Came into my life....
With different ways
Scarring my heart
Like their is no other life...
I m just a child ....
Considered suddenly as an adult
Thinking I m ready , without asking
And presents me in front of the world...
Will I survive?
Will I see light ?
Will I ever smile?
Will I ever take my flight?
Questions racked in my brain
Unsolved , since nobody answered
I m at my limits , wanna start again ...
Can I pls get reincarnated?
I don't want to die ,
But instead I m dying while living...
Oh , god ... I beg .... help me....
I want hope, to end this feeling...
I m shivering , feeling cold...
All the negativity rushed into my mind...
I m alone , don't wanna show myself
Since , everyone thinks I m always fine....
Putting my emotions , into words
Is not helping ,
Nor any music is able to heal...
The undying hate towards myself
That I m useless, I m weak...
I hv destroyed , destroyed my intellectual
Now , I don't know my way ....
Back from where I started ,
since it can never be reversed to that day..
They say , hv positive thoughts...
But they forgot to mention
Where these positive thoughts stay...
And what if they leave me and run ?
To whom should I seek?
To whom should i call ?
I feel trapped , inside my guilt
For being worst , since my fall....
