So there's this boy that is the same age at me.I have a crush on him for 5 years without him knowing.Everytime i see him my heart flutter like nuts so this year i decided to confess.I created a realistic art for him and worked really hard for it.Some days later after i inished it,i chatted him saying."Hi crush,,whatcha doing?",i said sarcasticly.At first i'm worried he may not answer but unexpectedly he did.I talked to him for a while as my hand trembled from so much nervousness.Since he doesn't know me or he did but juat didn't care to remember i don't have mucj confident causw he's my first love.After soms time my heart crumbled for knowing he has a crush on my Bestfriend.Tears start to fall from my eyes as i texted him trying to sound happy,"T-then goodbye,it was nice talking with you.Till the next blue moon we meet."
From that time i was so happy to talk to him all of my feelings and courage just got thrown away in the trash.I felt so little and asked myself,"Am i not lovable enough?Why would no one love me?"
From those questions of mine i tried not to cry since no one will even care.Not evem my own family.So i write my thought at my Novel even tho no ons will care about them.Cause i know deeo down everyone who i treated nicely and trust all just betrayed me.
