It's January 29, 2021 and it will be my 19th year of life. It's just a simple life. But with this called simple life , there have been ups and downs.
With this 19th year I realize that I have made accomplishment but haven't thought it through my journey. I get easily distracted when someone else have accomplished what I wished also to accomplish.
But I see that I always look to other people's accomplishment than mine. I always compare my self to other people. I always care for other people like, opinions and judgment towards me. I felt I haven't made my OWN CHOICE for those years.
My OWN CHOICE so called could also still be hidden behind me. Maybe I think I haven't made my own choice without knowing it. But that's life for me.
Let's not forget the fact my physical appearance is not that cute, charming or beautiful. Maybe because I have pimples? I am chubby? I don't have fair skin and of course I have curly hair. But to look beautiful , first YOU MUST LOVE YOURSELF.
Yada yada yada...others would say stop those things. Accept the fact you are ugly. Come on stop with that sad words.
Those phrases are always told by confident girls but with a trashy attitude. Like COME ON WHO IS F***ING PERFECT. LET ME KNOW OF YOU KNOW SOMEONE WHO IS PERFECT.
WHAT IS EVEN A PERFECT PERSON??
- RICH????
- BEAUTIFUL/HANDSOME???
- ADORE BY ALL PEOPLE???
- NEVER MADE A MISTAKE???
AND OTHER THINGS YOU COULD THINK OF.
First not all rich or wealthy people became rich with a snap of a finger. Unless you are born with that kind of family.
Second you may be beautiful outside and inside. But haven't you have your ugly days?? Like come on
who doesn't have a bad hair day or NO MAKE UP DAY.
Third being adore by everyone is nothing. Because you never know what they are talking about you at your back.
Last can you please tell me how come you didn't make a mistake for your WHOLE LIFE.
I may be 19 but come on I had made many mistakes. Can atleast someone teach me how not to make mistakes, I would like to have some lesson.
I used to look for love and relationship knowing I am not ready. I'm just being pressured or I am just jealous for others who have one. And growing with this generation of love scares me. Because it felt like no one is sincere with their feelings. It's like they loved you because their friends tease you. They love you because it was forced too. If you are not attractive I can't be with you.
Now that's love in this generation. A relationship that last a week? a month? a year? I know several people who has a relationship for a month and weeks. Let me tell you , they ended up as friends and strangers. Like nothing happened at all.
Another realization for my 19th life I learned that those people who I cherish in my memories, doesn't even cherish me. I was having memories with people I am not really closed too.
I was so blind trying to squeeze my self to them. Like hello it's obvious they don't like you, why bother? if you could enjoy your own company and wait for those true friends to come.
I have friend in junior high who is still have contacts with. In Senior high I do also have friends that are really close to me. I maybe the adventures in my junior high, but I am the shy one when it comes to my senior high friends. I act differently because that how I am comfortable with.
I learned that only my FAMILY , RELATIVES and TRUE FRIENDS are the people who I have for all this year's have supported me.
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This is for all those people who think they are not enough, not matured, think always about their mistakes.
let me tell you this.
NO ONE IS PERFECT, AND NO ONE CAN DEFINE PERFECT. WE HAVE DIFFERENT ABILITIES , STRATEGIES AND FUTURE, WE ARE NOT MADE TO DO THE SAME THING OTHER DOES.
WE ARE DIFFERENT IN LOOKS, HEIGHT, RELIGIONS, CULTURE AND COUNTRY. BUT WE ALL HAVE ONE IN COMMON AND IS TO REACH OUR DREAMS AND GOAL.
HAVE A NICE DAY ALWAYS 😊
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