My little diary🔞❤️

I never really had a thing for kpop idols or even knew that a country named korea exist, that was until I met him on Facebook, I didn't really always do Facebook often but when I began chatting with him, I got addicted, we didn't rush the friendship to exchanging contacts.

I thought i never cared, I thought i wouldn't get attached so i didn't bother asking.

Goshhh he was cute, sooo cute, I was the one who sent a friend request ready to roast him thinking it was some other guy pretending to be some hot guy to lure girls in.

He accepted the friend request and I expected something like "your nudes or contacts" but he asked of neither and that made me wonder how I was gonna know if he was a fake or not.

I am a trouble Maker kind of girly and my girlfriends (female friends) been telling me that they were dating some online hot guy and after asking for their nudes which they unfortunately sent, he turned out to be some 50 year old man who is a perv and pedophile hiding behind a cute 19 year old hot guy pic of some celebrity, and he would threaten to post the nudes online for people to see if they stop sending.

I got pissed and decided to check it out myself so that I would make anyone that fell into my hands pay with cyber bullying.

Yessss I would go that far.

I have some home boys who are good at tracking down people phone number and addresses no matter how hard they try to hide it.

Hell yeah! I was prepared to teach all those old fools a lesson they wont ever forget in their whole life.

They thought they were the hunter hunting for young girls to prey on but they didn't know they would end up being the prey of some 17 year old girl.

I have caught three so far, sending them direct messages to their email and sending screenshot of our fake chat to their families destroying everything they thought they had, making them so bored to take advantage of other people kids. they are so disgusting!!

Some of them got jailed when some girls they had groomed, happened to be less than 16 and one of their friends daughter. I had sent a list of girls they had groomed to each of their friends and family members sending the required evidence to make them believe me, it became so serious that it led to legal consequences. I was anonymous, I hid my identity well enough.

Yep, I was watching it all happen through my phone, messages and pictures from different cameras my friends had "accidentally" hacked all the way from here.

Well... now I was in a though spot with this guy who called himself Seo Jun-Ha

He acted all normal asking me daily about my day went and if it was okay, sent me pics of the beautiful veiw he was staring at and asked me what the weather was like at my country.

I was confused I didn't know what to do than just to go with the flow.

But what if I was falling into someone trap right now?

Then I decided to force it out of him.

I asked how old he was and he said 18 that he would be going to college by next month.

I told him my age and he said he would be my big brother because he is a year older than me.

Huh??? Why is he saying that? He sounded so sweet, too sweet, normally those old fool behind the screen would say i should send them a pic of myself and next my nudes.

I got some pics and n#des from website to trick them with it, but this guy He haven't even ever asked for my pic before, going further to say its my choice if I ever wanted to send it or not, he did say he was curious to know what i look like after all I had some random anime cute girl as my profile pic but regardless he respected my privacy and said whenever I wanted to, I can send it.

But yet i felt like i was being played, i mean why wont i? This social media is filled with alot of fake people that are just disgusting perverts. So I decided to go further wey beyond boundaries he was trynna respect

***Chat***

Me:Wanna see it?😏

Him:see what?👀

Me:My nudes i gat alot🥵

Him:Huh??

Me:Come on.. I know you want to, i wont ask for anything in return.

Him:Get off my DM!!!

Me:what??

Him:I don't want to block you because I regarded you as my friend or maybe a sister even, but now this??? What tf do you take me for??!!!

I was shocked by his reaction and began feeling so guilty, I became sure that he was indeed the same person on the pic that was behind the account. I went to far, I should have been able to tell from the way he chatted that he wasn't....

Ahhhh...

I am dying with guilt...

Wtf should I do..

Okay, a voice note, no umm video, I need to apologise.

But then i felt terrible when I remembered that I was a brown skin girl, yes I am brown or black, ahhhhh!!

I never showed him my pic because i still didn't trust him to be real, I am scared he might not like me and judge my skin colour and it would anger him more.

My Dad is African, and my Mum is from Brazil, I got a really long curly hair from her and her blue eyes, seems she was a half cast herself, her mum was American and dad, Brazil.

And right now I am staying in Africa with my parents but I have read lot of novels and seen in the Internet, people getting bullied because they are dark or brown skin.

What should I do now.

I read the message again and my heart aches with deeper guilt.

I dont care, I will apologise at least I tried even if he end up hating me more because all this while it was an African chatting with him.

I began the vid sadly explaining to him why I had said all those stuff and apologised to him almost in tears for hurting his feelings because I thought he was an 80 year old man pretending to be a hot young guy to like lure girls like me in.

I also added that if he didn’t want to chat with me anymore, it was cool because I caused it all.

I sent the vid and buried my head on my pillow imagining his reply, preparing myself mentally and emotionally for the decrimination I will get for my skin and about the fact that he still and won't forgive me.

Well...I ended up not getting a reply at all but the message was marked as read, I wanted to block him to end everything after all, I had already apologised, till I remembered what he had said.

"I don't want to block you because I regarded you as my friend or maybe even a sister"

Blocking him will totally be unfair. I just left it be and slept off.

The next day, I got his reply which shocked me making me roll off the bed.

He was saying I am forgiven and that he is impressed I had managed to catch three imposters already and asking me how I made them pay.

He sent some cute stickers of curiosity and excitement ready to hear my tale.

Gosh this guy...

I thought he would stay mad at me for life, but I am suprised he just put it behind already.

He was still typing and I just kept staring at it waiting excitedly for his next message and next came

"Damn,You are so beautiful"

That caught me off guard, my whole face turned hot and red, I...I did not expect any of this.

The message didn't end there, it kept coming.

"Plus your eyes....I had watched the video over and over again because I couldn’t focus on a thing you were saying, my whole focus were just your eyes. It's so beautiful. And your hair, curly and long"

My face turned even reder I could die from blushing ( T∀T)

"Your skin look so soft i feel like a little pinch might cause alot of damage😂"

Okay the last one made my blush vanish i couldn't tell if that was also a compliment or just an insult. I began whining about him making fun of me while he just kept sending funny sticker reaction acting all innocent.

We ended with a laughter.

Since then we were chatting non-stop, every day, laughing, playing silly online games and making fun of ourselves.

We were behaving like siblings no kidding.

He teased me like a big brother and at the same time panick whenever I fell sick. One time, because I had played in the rain with my friends like kids, i came down with a really bad cold.

Gosh he scolded me so bad and pestered me to take my drugs even making a voice note yelling at me to take my drugs before I get worst is was giggling till i heard him at the end whining like a baby saying who would he chat with if I dont recover enough to hold my phone properly.

Ahhhhhh he was sooo cute I suddenly overcome my fear for bitter drugs and didn't miss a day.

All thanks to his whining, I hot better in two days.

He sent a pic of him making a heart shape with his fingers as a good morning pic. It reminded me of how hot and cute this guy was, I still cant believe he really is the one. Black hair falling over his forehead, black cute eyes, a piercing on his ear, one on his right eye brows and great biceps. I am trying hard not to drewl over him.

I sent him a pic of me sticking out my tongue at him, with a text telling him it was night right now.

I was laughing hard, he was in Korea and I, in Africa, our time zone was soo different and he forgot this time it was funny but cute how he sent a sticker of a puppy about to cry.

Sometimes I feel like I am the big sister among us really.

I bursted out laughing thinking about it.

Things were going great we chatted everyday and every minute.

When he began college, he would sneak his phone in class chatting me up as the lecturer thought them.

He would whine about how boring the class was and that if I was there with him, we would sneak out to get some ice cream or something.

I laughed hard reminding him that between us he was the big brother and yet teaching me this?

He immediately changed his mind saying it was bad to sneak out of class and i shouldn't do it or he would scold me non-stop.

I just couldn't stop laughing and it made my classmates think I was crazy.

Yes, i was also in class as I chatted with him.

I am in my final year in high school.

We constantly kept chatting for half a year, he suprised me with a video call during my graduation ceremony to congratulate me.

He made my day, really, his smile and his little jokes to make me laugh. My friends screamed when they saw me on a video call with him, yelling that he looked like a popular kpop star asking me for his number which I myself didn't eveb have, he blew me a kiss and hung up telling me to keep smiling that way.

I was suprised by his charm just now but just shoke it off flooding his dm with my fun graduation pics.

He rated them the next day giving only the one of my mum 10 and me 0.

I whinned and he kept teasing me.

Then one day, all so suddenly he stopped replying to my text.

I didn't know why and yet it didn't suprise me. I knew our friendship was too good to be true.

I knew it would definitely come to an end sooner or later.

But..but yet why cant I stop checking my phone hoping that he replies.

Why cant I stop crying remembering the fun I had with him, his teasing and whining.

Why can't I stop hurting, why do I keep sending him good morning text regardless of his silence like it was a daily routine.

Yeah, back then he was my daily routine, we always chat every single day.

Why?? Why did it have to end like this.

My friends did tell me to just track him like I did to those people, but I said I would never.

I would never do that to him. Ever.

I respect his privacy as much as he respect mine.

If this is what he wants it's okay.

***A month later***

Scrolling through Tiktok i came a cross a vid that had over 17 million likes. it made me curious, so I stoped scrolling and that was when i saw him.

Standing on a huge stage, handsome and hot, hair dyed pink,a fit that made ladies drewl.

Thousands of girls screaming and fainting just from him showing a little of his ripped Abbs, this guy was a K-pop star among the most popular K-pop group in the world and beside him stood three more hot Korea guys who i think were the members.

I was happy seeing him look so happy on stage, I was so glad he was doing well I was shocked but yet so glad.

I did worry a little too much, over thinking that something bad might have happened to him but hi..his okay

His happy, I am so glad.

Since then, I became a K-pop fan cheering for him behind the screen.

Crying when he cried and laughing when he did.

I became a huge fan girl, I never in a million years thought I would ever become one.

When I heard him sing, my heart literally melt that was actually what pulled me closer to being a huge fan girl of his.

Now I was sure that I would never see him physically or even get a text from him ever again even as a brother.

Wishing for that now, was like wishing for the moon.

He is now far beyond my reach and I know it.

Yet, it hurts so bad.