I may hug you
for the last time
and not know it
not feel the ending
hiding inside the warmth
maybe…
my life without you
will stretch out like a quiet road
too long
too empty
too honest
maybe every morning
will wake up heavy
like it remembers something
I’m trying to forget
and maybe this is it—
the bottom line
no more us
just silence
wearing the shape of your name
just sadness
just sorrow
just me
learning how to exist
without the sound of you
but then…
something softer speaks
I may live like that
I may
miss you in everything
lose you in everything
become a ghost in my own days
but I don’t have to
I don’t have to stay broken
just because I broke
I don’t have to turn goodbye
into a lifetime sentence
I may hug you
for the last time
but I don’t have to
lose myself
after you
*I may… but I don’t have to*
