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This is the shittiest thing I have to do, explain what I'm feeling without myself knowing what I'm feeling.

Venting is the shittiest thing I have done. The more I vent, the more I become unknown to myself.

It feels like every time I say things out loud, I lose the ability to understand them.

Venting gives a sense of comfort but also becomes an excuse to avoid dealing with that emotion.

Sometimes it’s better to keep things inside and figure them out alone.

I feel less human because I don’t experience emotions normally. After venting, I feel nothing. At least negative emotions used to make me feel human. They had intensity.

Now it’s just emptiness or numbness

I don't want anyone to understand. I just want people to leave me alone and stop questioning why I'm behaving like that and stop assuming stuff.