It's becomes her habit yes today also she open her diary and write her thoughts on the diary . She love him but never said it loudly, she devoted him she always watched his happiness and she never confess her love to him , yet always drawn into his love she may keep it secret but it always showed in her eyes how much she love him , she love his eyes but unable to meet his eyes and when accidently meet his eyes her heart skip a bit and lost into them for her his eyes were just like ✨... She writes in her diary ( I know I'm fool but I really don't want u to be mine I want u to be with the one you truly loves and if I ever get jealous then don't worry i will handle myself but never let u affect. I don't know how to address you in my heart). It's was just a selfless love of her