Still it's u 🍁

I didn’t mean to fall—

it just happened quietly,

like rain starting without warning,

like ur name

slipping into every heartbeat

Even now,

when someone says u out loud,

my chest forgets how to act normal—

it races, stumbles,

like it knows something I can’t control

And when I found out

u loved me too—

it wasn’t just happiness,

it was fear

Bcz loving u in my dreams was easy,

but loving u for real

felt like holding something

I didn’t want to break

Maybe I did anyway

Maybe in some moment

I didn’t even understand,

I became someone

you thought could hurt u easily—

but if u could see inside me,

u’d know

I don’t even sleep right

when u’re on my mind

I never wanted to be the storm

in ur sky

But u—

when things got heavy,

U stepped back,

like I was something u could put down,

like I didn’t weigh anything at all

And that’s what hurts the most—

not the distance,

not the silence,

but the feeling

that I mattered only

when it was easy

Still…

I don’t believe this is all u are

Because somewhere between ur words

and the way u once held me,

I found a forever

I still can’t let go of

U said u’d never leave

So tell me—

was that love,

or just a moment

that changed with your mood?

Bcz I’m still here,

loving u

the only way I know how—

with a heart

that doesn’t know how to stop,

even when it should .....🙍🏻‍♀️