every morning
you have
a new opportunity
to become a
happier versions
of yourself
but that will soon be crashing down
when you think for the memories
from your past .
the thing that reminded you when you thought it was long gone but it still in the back of your head hiding in you mind yo come at you in the right time .
this story is about a girl named Li .since she was born in this work she have always bad luck . when she was two years old she broke her arm . when she was 4 she was harrassed by a man him tough her private parts of her body while she was playing hide and seek with her neighbors .the man was then caught after a moth of playing the game . she was fine she told ever she wasn't afraid and she wasn't . when Li was 8 she twisted her ankle while playing with her friends at school she didn't told anyone about it . she just secretly hope they will notic how differently she was walking but they didn't notic.
when school was over she told her mom and her mom said " why didn't you tell the teacher ?! now we have to go to the doctor to get it checked but the doctor check up is closed at this hou r . " while her family was a but worried she didn't really cared for her the sprinted ankle is nothing compared from the pain how her friends did even notic . when she was 8 and half her neighbors moved to a different country which made her sad but showed a strong face .
at the 4th grad she didnt study well because of her missing her neighbors friends .
and then the 6 grade she failed again because the lack of study.
Li goes to two school . fist is the main school and the second is just a culture school Pacific for that culture.
she didn't understand the language , cant speak or write but she managed to be in the 5th grade where sha had fail the exam and will be delivering the 5th grade .
Li change in the time having hard time. being weak . cant even stand up for herself and became more quite and more distant . then she started to have suicidal thoughts .and the more she thought about the more she think " whats keeping me back ? " what is keeping her live at that time ....
the pain that's why the pain fro. when your dieding that what keeping li alive for the tiwm being .
it March and now she is at her ant funeral .
eyeing her eyes out this was her first ever lost .but she keep some of the pain in .she alway kept the pain in not letting it show giving the people the side of her being fine while the other side just want to let is all out let some comfort her . let someone give her a warm and long hug a shoulder to let all the pain go away .but she kept it in crying herself to sleep thinking about suicidal thoughts .
and her only escape is reading some fanfic because she loved 2D characters writing down of them with herself . them caring for her in her imagination while in reality needs help .
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the girl with suicidal thoughts has never been so--
