Hi I'm Mika, and I'm here to tell you guys that being alone isn't really easy.
I've suffered a lot through highschool..I have no friends,my parents got divorced and abandoned me now I lived at my Aunt's house, got bad grades, no one to lean on and I get beaten easily everyday because I'm "WEAK".
But being weak is a part of life, we were born to be weak at first you know..
Every night I can't sleep properly because of "Anxiety", I know all of you can't sleep properly too because of that.
I don't have someone to lean on..
I don't have someone to call a "Friend".
"Why..Why is life cruel to me?.. I didn't even ask to be born.." I always said to myself every night crying as if I don't exist.
My aunt was nice to me at first but she suddenly changed when she had miscarriage, she abuses me when she gets drunk...But I understand her..Losing a child...
When I reached college...I met this man called "Kai" he was the school's campus crush.. He was so nice to me, he approached me first... I know, he's nice to all girls that's why he's the school's campus crush... There was a time when we classmates went on a drink on the restaurant, they all were having fun, luckily he invited me..All of them were drunk especially Kai.. Then he suddenly leaned on my shoulder, I was blushing!..They all left except me and Kai,we were about to leave..But suddenly I thought that I don't know where he lives, luckily my other classmate is still not leaving and was outside, he gave me Kai's address...He was Kai's friend...Then we went to his home, he was living alone in his apartment because his parents are overseas..We went inside and I put him to his bed, I was about to leave but then he grabbed my hand.. "You know.. you're really pretty *hic* " he said AND THEN I GET SUDDENLY FLUSTERED..He pulled me and suddenly kissed me... He has soft lips that you can imagine, I kissed him back... LITTLE DID I KNOW, WE DID THE "THING"!!...The next day he walked me home and left without saying goodbye.. it was strange, after all what he did to me..Few minutes later it was time for school, I was preparing myself but then I got dizzy and nauseous.."Kuff-" I covered my mouth and ran to the bathroom and then puked.."I..know what this means..." Yes.. I'm pregnant, and Kai's the father..AHH!! I REALLY REGRET OF KISSING HIM BACK!!.....Later I arrived at school late, the teacher was scolding me while I was dizzy... Then Lunch came and I was finding Kai, I saw him hugged a girl... Little did I know it was his...GIRLFRIEND!..Why??! Just why??!!....I suddenly walked into them and asked Kai if I can talk with him for a moment..His girlfriend was smiling and saw me, "Oh is that your classmate?She's pretty^^"..She's just as sweet as a pie, I don't want to hurt her because I'm pregnant with Kai's child!... Kai was nervous...Then we head to the rooftop, he wasn't the Kai I know now... "Just forget what happened yesterday, I was drunk and.. I have a girlfriend that I really love.." he said, My heart got broken into pieces... I told him that he got me pregnant..He became furious and then he suddenly shouted at me "A-ABORT IT! I-I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND THAT I REALLY LOVE, I DONT WANT TO HURT HER!!"....But now I had enough, "IT'S YOUR FAULT, YOU FREAKING HURT US BOTH AND YOUR GIRLFRIEND!! I PITY YOUR GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE SHE HAS SUCH AN IRRESPONSIBLE BOYFRIEND!!" I said loudly.. But we suddenly heard a door slam..It was his girlfriend!, She heard everything! She ran downstairs crying and Kai followed her.. She isn't the only one got hurt, but I am the one who's really hurt!....While crying on the rooftop, I suddenly thought about jumping from the roof..I stand on the edge of the rooftop.. "I'm sorry my child, but I can't do it anymore.." as I smiled while tears are running down.. I was about to jump but someone grabbed me gently...I was shocked, it was Kai's friend "Leinen"!.. the one who gave Kai's address...."Suicide isn't the only option you know! You could kill another person too!"...Yes.. my child could be harmed because of me, tears are running down again.. I'm sorry my child, I won't do it again!...While calming down, he suddenly kneeled down in front of me, "You know why I was still outside at the restaurant yesterday?", yeah I got curious of that too.. "I was waiting for you and was to walk you home" he said while smiling so gently.. This warmth that I have longed for, that I've been waiting to have... "I liked you since highschool", W-WHAT?!! H-HE LIKED ME SINCE HIGHSCHOOL???BUT I DIDN'T KNOW HIM BEFORE!!...."I know you don't know me before because I was from your next classroom..when walking through beside your classroom, I saw you smiled for the first time, and that made my heart flutter" he said... I admit, I smiled that time because I saw someone from the window got tripped hehe.. But he said I made him flutter?, does that mean he truly loved me from highschool since now? Oh my.....Then someone came back, it was Kai's girlfriend "Aisha"! She ran towards me and hugged me, "How could you do that! *sob* you almost got yourself killed! *sob*"...Wha?... She's concerned about me when I hurted her?..."Yes I got mad too because Kai got you pregnant,I heard the full story..but it was his fault too... Also I broke up with him, so he can be responsible of what he did... " she said with a sad smile... It's my first time getting comforted by someone, it's nice...
We three became friends after that.
Leinen became my boyfriend
Aisha and Leinen helped me during pregnancy.
And now I had a loving son and named him "Yuki" means 'snow' because I gave birth to him on a snowy day.
Leinen and Aisha loved me and Yuki so much too.
Few years later,
this day came on a spring day, I was brought to a place where all flower blooms, it was so nice,quiet and a beautiful place..."I met a light that fell from the sky when I was walking towards the shadow, it was warm and I don't want it to let go.." someone said behind me.. I turned around and saw Leinen kneeled down in front of me like the day he comforted me from suicide holding a box with a ring inside... "Mika, I will treasure you and Yuki forever till the day I die, Will you marry me?" he said with a gentle smile... The dream I've been waiting and wanting for has finally come! The only words I've been wanting to say, "Yes, I will marry you!", tears are running down from my eyes... Aisha was there holding Yuki in her arms while shouting so happily.. Then someone appeared, it was Kai!...He's so different now.. I asked him why he was here.."I asked him to come here, I'm sorry" Leinen said... Aisha became upset again while Yuki was curious...Sigh... I told Yuki that Kai was his father, I thought he was gonna be upset but he was so happy, "Yey! I have two dads!"..Atleast he didn't get angry... Kai apologized to me and Aisha for what he has done and asked Aisha to be together again, Wow he truly loves Aisha..Well I have Leinen now so I want Aisha to be happy atleast.. Aisha still loves him too, me and Leinen both agreed that they can be together again I mean it's not our decision, it's theirs...Few days later they got back together while me and Leinen with Yuki are being a happy family...
That's my story... Being alone isn't easy, because we still need friends or family to lean on
[Hope You liked it, Read my other stories too called "The Villainess Changed" and "Love On Earth:Different World Of Mine"]
-Mystyc♡
